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chapter 17

Saylor Gray:

It's been 2 weeks since the trio visited well one of them left. I asked Armand who drove and he said Lucas which means Ixion doesn't know my address and apparently the dumbass didn't bother looking around so he doesn't really know the area. Good, he doesn't need to randomly show up at mines.

I sign not really knowing what to do for the next 1 hours as Alayna is coming back and were having a girl's sleepover which includes my sister Carson. I lay down on my couch with a book in my hand but I can't concentrate.

I miss my parents.

They might be absolute assholes but that doesn't mean I love them any less. Nobody realises how mentally draining it is to have parents who belittle you and just constantly physically and mentally abuses you. I've become so insecure and always hiding myself away. It isn't fun.

I can't just unlove them because once upon a time mum did love me and dad did kiss me before heading to work. I will forever cherish those days where I was truly loved not abandoned and tossed like a piece of shit. I wipe the tears that are tracing down my cheeks and stand up to wash my face but as soon as I see myself in the mirror, I burst out crying all over again. Will I ever truly get over it?

I tell myself I'm fine I'm okay even though I'm not. I do it to calm myself down and to stop freaking crying. I hate crying all it ever does is give me a bad headache and makes me look like I have a cold.

An hour goes by after reading and drinking coffee and Alayna finally arrives. I have missed this girl so much! She just opens the door as I gave her the key and I immediately run-up to her and jump on her. My legs wrap around her waist while my arms do the same to her neck and she grabs me to prevent both of us from tumbling down to the ground.

"Jesus lady, I missed you too" She chuckles.

I chuckle along with her too."Alaynaaaa I missed your ugly annoying voice but especially your car rides." I speak. I can't really drive so Alayna is my personal driver because why not?

I get off her eventually and we both move on the couch with my head on her lap and her on her phone.

"So what's up?" She asks while scrolling through Twitter. I hate that stupid app it's very toxic and yeah no I don't want to enter that world.

I end up explaining everything with Ixion and how he entered my house for 10 minutes and just left. Her eyes widened and her mouth gaped open and she was frozen for a good 10 minutes.

"Shut up! Your joking no way did you what?" She rambles.

"Alayna you okay?" I ask concerned as my eyebrows crease together in confusion. She squints her dark brown eyes at me and makes a 'are you dumb?' Expression at me.

"Am I okay? AM I OKAY? NO, I AM BECAUSE MY SHIP IS GETTING BACK TOGETHER I ALWAYS WANTED YOU GUYS TO BE TGPETEHR SINCE WE WERE KIDS BUT HE HAD TO JUST GO AND BE A ASSHOLE LIKE WTF DUDE-" she blurts out.

I stare at her shocked.

"ALAYNA HOPE FUCKING BLAKE SHUT YOUR GODDAMN MOUTH" I yell.

She quickly shuts up.

"I can't believe that came out of your mouth but me and Ixion aren't going to get together also he is my client once that stupid event is over I won't be seeing him again. Now I really don't give a single fuck about him so can we just go and watch outer banks?"

"Urgh fine come on give me some blanket" She requests.

"Bitch no" I reply back while shuffling all the blanket to my side.