Herophine: beyond after

Chapter 8

Jo pov

"I am insanely horny right now" I say shutting hero's laptop and putting it to the side.

"And what would you like me to do about that" he says with a smile holding my waist as I straddle him.

"I can think of a few things" I say leaning down and connecting our lips. He passionately kisses me back and pulls me close.

I begin unbuttoning his shirt and he kisses along my jawline and neck. I lay my head along his shoulder as his lips run along my skin.

I begin to feel a small pain in my belly but I try to ignore it as hero's lips run up and down my skin.

He slides his hands under my shirt and I connect our lips back together.

I stop kissing him when I feel a sharper pain.

"Is everything alright" he asks rubbing my back with concern

"I'm not feeling so good at the moment" I whisper

"What do you want me to do" he says worriedly

"I think I'm going to lay down for a second" I say and he helps me lay down in bed

"Are you feeling okay? Do we need to go to the doctor" he says

"No im sure I'm fine" I say and another sharp pain hits, causing me to clutch my stomach and wince.

"We're going to the hospital. You're not okay" hero says running to my side and helping me out of bed.
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TW: baby loss

The doctors aren't quite sure what caused this or why it happened, kind of just an in the moment thing.

The thing that will haunt me most are these words: "I'm sorry but you lost your baby girl"

Baby girl?

Hero and I didn't know the sex of the baby yet. I guess she was a girl.

I thought miscarriages resulted in blood but I was the complete opposite. Everything was happening inside me and there was nothing I could do about it.

After the news we had lost our baby, hero took us home, I slept for hours and now after a day of staying in bed I am finally getting out of bed.

The only reason is that we have an interview to do.

"We don't have to do this today" hero whispers to me as we sit in the interview chairs with Anna by our side.

"We're already here. Might as well" I give him a fake smile.

No one knows about the miscarriage. Not many people knew we were pregnant, including Anna.

"After this interview what do you say we grab some lunch" Anna suggest

"I don't think we're up for it" hero says

"No. Lets go" I say and he turns to me with careful eyes

"Are you sure" he whispers

"I'm okay" I say to him and he grabs a hold of my hand.
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"How is life going for my favorite couple" Anna ask as we munch on bread at the table, while we wait for our meals

"I've seen better days" I say placing my bread back on my plate after one bite

"Is everything alright" Anna asks concerned

"No" I say looking down at my hands and wiping away tears.

"Hero what's going on" Anna asks

"Jo" he says bringing me close and holding me.

He kisses my head and I cry into his chest.

"There's something we need to tell you" Hero says to Anna and I sit up and look at her.

"Okay. Spit it out" she says

"We were pregnant" hero whispers as I wipe my tears

"Were? What do you mean were?" She says in shock

"We lost the baby a few days ago" I whisper and can't help but be in a puddle of tears again.

"you two. I'm so sorry" she says getting out of her chair and hugging me and hero.

"Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant in the first place" she says

"We were figuring things out, didn't want to tell too many people, good thing we didn't because our baby is gone" I say and lay my face in my hands.

"Enough with lunch. Lets get you home" Anna says helping me out of my chair and walking us out of the restaurant.

When we get back to the apartment, Anna stays to help me and hero out. I just do a lot of sleeping.
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"What are we going to do now" I ask hero as we lay wide awake in bed.

"Move on the best we can." He whispers to me as he combs his fingers in my hair.

"I think I should go back home" I say lowly.

"We can do that. If that's what you need" he says

"Alone. I need to be alone" I say

"I can give you your space but is space really what you need right now" he says

"I don't know" I say sitting up and covering my face with my hands

"All I know is that I want to be alone. I can't manage our relationship and take care of myself. It's all too much right now" I tell him

"You don't have to manage anything. I thought we were doing this together." He says

"Well we're not having a baby anymore so it's not like we have to stay glued to each other" I say standing from the bed

"Jo, what are you saying" he says

"Look I know you're hurting. I'm hurting too but walking away from each other is not going to help" he says

"Do you love me" I say gently

"Yes, of course I love you" he says standing from the bed too.

"Then please let me be alone" I say as tears roll down my face.

He packs a bag of things and minutes later he's out the door.

Little did I know, this argument would be our last because the next day we broke up. He was on his way to London and I was heading back to Perth.

It will be months until we see each other.

Sad chapter

I know but there is so much more to come.

Happy reading,
Herophinexafter 💖