!!HUGE FUCKING TW!! (Derealization)
derealization in my own words: when one feels withdrawn from their reality.
derealization in googles browser: "Derealization is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings."
lowercase intended.
i wake up feeling strange, i feel like i do not belong. i dont belong is what i often believe, i always feel out of place. i belong somewhere different from here, i dont know where but its not here i belong. i often think about other places i'd fit so well in, harry potter or stranger things. these realities seem so much better then mine.
but it isnt mine, this reality i dont belong in. i have to find my way back, i have to find out how to get far from here. my friends say im crazy. they arent my friends, i know them but i also dont, who are my friends? my parents wont listen to me, they arent my real parents anyway so why are they here? if i could escape i would but they think im crazy. they think there's something wrong with me.
im fine, just in the wrong place. i want to go back but my memories from my old reality are gone, they have been taken from me and i have a feeling they wont be coming back. the new ones replace the old ones and soon i wont even be able to know that this is the wrong place. where am i from? why am i not there? i do not belong here but they dont care.
my surroundings feel strange and so do i. im not here. they arent here and none of this is real. im non-existent, all of this is. it's a simulation and my real reality is out there somewhere. stop telling me who you are i dont care, it doesn't help. you aren't my real friends like hermione and ron. harry misses me im sure, i need to go back. go back now, but how?
i do not belong, stop telling me i do, i dont. it makes me mad when you say these things, when you pretend youre here but you arent. you are fake, i am fake. reality as we know it is breaking, cracking beneath us and there is nothing we can do about it because it isnt real. theres no need to worry because it isn't happening. it isnt real, we arent really here, calm down.
!!YOU ARE REAL AND LOVED!!
YOU ARE READING
mental illnesses as stories
Short Storywell, yes, i did it. before anyone says anything i did research and tried to make the most sense of everything okay? i have anxiety and adhd, if you have any mental illnesses and think i didn't havr an accurate definition or story dm me and I'll cha...
