I Still Love You.

Chapter 8

WARNING: child abuse.

Alex pov:
I can't believe it's been 1 year already.
1 year! I can't believe. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to escape, but.. I can't. I can't!
At least Willie was keeping me company. We are dating for 2 months.

"Hey" Willie said walking towards me, kissing me.
"Hey." I said smiling.
"What are you doing?"
"I just- I just write something here."
"What? Can you show me?"
"I don't know."
"Oh come on. Please."
"Finee" i said showing him one paper on my notebook. I wrote so much more. But I wanted to show him just that one.
"Wow. You write this?"
"Yeah."
"I didn't know you could write songs."
"It is really that unbelievable?"
"No.. No no. I just never saw any of your songs."
"Well, yeah. Because I didn't show for no one. I'm just writing."
"Well, you are very good at it"
"Thanks" i said with a smile.
"I'm just telling the truth." He said smiling.
"now I have to go. I'll catch you later."
"Okay. Be careful."
"You know I am." Willie said smiling.

Luke pov:
I really can't believe it's been 1 year. 1 year without Alex. I miss him everyday.
I wish he could be here with us.

"Hey Luke" Julie said coming towards me.
"Hey girl." I said smiling.
"What are you doing?"
"Just thinking. How was school?"
"Boriiing." She said sitting on the couch.
"Yeah. I know" I said walking towards her sitting on the couch.
"I'm happy that I'm home. And it's wekeend. So we can spend more time together.
"Yeah."
"I love you. You know that right?"
"Julie I-"
"Shh. You don't need to say nothing. Just let's enjoy this moment."
"Okay." I said looking at her.

Later:

"Hey hey." Reggie said.
"Oh hey Reg. Where were you?" I said.
"At the beach."
"Oh cool."
"Where is Julie?"
"She has some homework to do. You know it's wekeend. So she is doing it now, and she will have saturday and sunday free."
"Oh"
After a moment of silence i started speaking again.
"Reg?"
"Yeah?"
"Do you think about him?"
"About who?"
"You know who."
"Oh. Yeah. Yeah. Everyday. You?"
"Yes. Every single day. I miss him. Very much. You know? It's hard without him."
"Yeah. I miss him too."
"Of course we miss him. He was a part of our family."
"Yes. He was."

"Hey guys."
"Julie. You are done with your homework?"
"Yeah. I didn't had much. Uhm, what is with your face guys?"
"Nothing. What do you mean?"
"You look sad."
"It's a hard time."
"Yeah. Julie" Reggie said.
"Okay? Let's start to rehears."
"Just the three of us?" Reggie asked.
"Yeah. Louis can't be here."
"Oh. Okay." I said.

Flashback 1995 march 12.

Alex pov:
It's been one week since i told my friends that I am gay. They are very supportive. I love them. So, I was thinking maybe I should tell my parents.
My friends are so supportive so why my parents wouldn't be?
I mean they are my parents. They have to love me. I am the same me. Nothing changed, i just love boys and not girls.

At school. 10:50 pm.

"Alex."
"Hey Luke."
"How are you?"
"Well I'm good. Why?"
"Uhm. It seems to me that you are a little bit sad?"
"Oh. I was just thinking."
"About?"
"Come with me" i said walking on the bathroom, Luke next to me.
"Ok. So why are we here?"
"I was thinking to tell my parents today about, you know, that I'm gay" i said whispering the last part.
"And why are you whispering?"
"I don't want someone in school to found out."
"Oh, I got it. And how are you felling telling your parents?'
"I'm- I am scared."
"Come here" He said hugging me.
"Thanks"
"Of course. Everything gonna be alright."
"I hope so." Then we heard the bell riging.