In need of a friend

The problems I face

I can't knock on a door to ask for extra napkins,

I can't hang out with or open up with new people,

I just can't get out of my own mind and experience this world,

Do I look skinnier today?

Wow, seriously, why do I look so fat that  I can't even recognize myself.

i can't get out of my head space

I try I try not to cry,

but when I see those girls with pretty face and skinnier thighs,

I just can't control my eyes.

I try not to think that people are judging me,

but deep down there is a part of me that thinks maybe, I am judging myself.

Don't overthink, I tell myself everyday

but I still let my stronger self down, when I stare at myself in the mirror at night

Don't imagine things, it's not real 

but then I end up creating those fake memories the happiest in my day.