In need of a friend

Fake Smile

I am laying down, starring at the ceeling again.
With a million thoughts rushing through my brain again.
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I so mean?
Why am I always a burden?
STOP I screamed, but it didn't stopped.
My eyes were getting heavy,
I was feeling sad and cold,
But those tears never came,
I wanted to cry so bad
But it felt like there are no more tears in my body.
I tried to be strong,
But wanting a hug isn't wrong.
I just want a hand to hold on this journey.
I don't want people to see me cry.
But I also want someone to see through that fake smile.