MASKED STRANGER: (BTS ff)

NIGHTMARE

Y/n Pov

I saw Jimin getting up and walking out of the room. He said he was tired

'yes tired of pretending he is fine.'

Yes I know Jimin still loves me. Even I loved him but Now I don't want this to continue.

If this continues He'll only get even more hurt because of me, I know fans will never support it. They will hate me as well as him.

I am already facing all the hate and I don't want him to face the same. I can't let him in anymore, otherwise, he'll get caught in me.

He was always there. He was there when I cried. He was there when I was broke. He was there when I needed a shoulder.

But I

I won't be able to do the same for him.

I wasn't even able to protect me how will I protect him.

I will just end up dragging him in my problem and be a burden and that's last thing I will like to do in my life...

'I m sorry Jimin, You'll be better without me'

But is this right?

Why does it hurt...

Why does it feels wrong....

"What's wrong?" I snapped out to see J-hope Oppa looking down at me.

"Uhh, no nothing"

"really," He asked as he sat beside me on the couch.

"Y-Yes"

I said and kept my head down and tried my best to smile.

Anyone can say I am not myself just by looking at me. and I don't want anyone to find me like this.

It really pisses me off how easy it is to get sad and then how long and hard it is to get happy again. or at least pretend to be.

He brought his hands toward mine and held my small hands in his giving it a light reassuring squezze.

"Y/n... look up" He demanded in a calm voice and I know I can't ignore his words. I slowly raised my head and looked at his eyes. "It's Jimin, Isn't it?"

I gazed down at his words and nodded.

'I can't hide anything from them, they always figure it out'

"I-I was... I just got worried"

It isn't like I haven't noticed it. I noticed that He lost his smile, his bubbly nature, the way he used to joke around the members. He hasn't been himself and the reason is 'me'. I know it, And that's what is worrying me.

'I am worried that he will change'

"I know," He said as he put his hand on my shoulder trying to calm me "Don't worry so much my Good girl, he'll be alright "

'good girl'

"Oppa..." I called out still keeping my head down "You still think I am a good girl. You all know everything about me now. You know that what I have hide from you all could have brought more hate to your company. I hurt Jimin. I betrayed you all. I am weak, I am broken, I am a coward, but even after knowing that you still stay. Still care for me. still love me. I ain't worth it. "

"You don't know how worthy you are y/n." He spoke out calling my name. There was a light rage in his voice. He sighed before continuing "If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me, To us. I don't know what you feel about yourself. You might think you are weak, you are a coward, you are not worthy but I think you are the most strong girl I have ever meet. You agree or not. In our View, In BTS view you Deserve the world. So don't dare to say that again, hmm?" I just nodded in response what do you accept me to do else that.