harry potter oneshots

harry potter x reader

i can't talk about emotions;

i looked to the ground, miserable and down.

i'd been feeling awful for the past couple of days for no reason in particular.

harry had been carrying on as usual, probably didn't even notice anything was wrong.

since he was little, he hadn't been very good at dealing with people's feelings and certainly wasn't good at noticing them.

harry was my best friend and i loved him dearly but, saying that, he was very slappable somtimes. it made me wonder why i loved him so much.

my eyes were heavy, head resting in my hands and staring at the floor.

hermione had noticed something was up as soon as i saw her. i told her i didn't know what was wrong. it was clear i was lying and she could read me like a book. she actually told me it was an embarrassing attempt, obviously leading to her finding out how much i loved harry.

harry walked into the room, a spring in his step.

i sat on the sofa in the common room, my hands clasped together, supporting my head. fred, george and hermione stared sympathetically at me, they were the only people who knew my feelings towards harry.

i looked down to the ground, hoping he would just for once see how much i was hurting inside, i wasn't even trying to hide it anymore and he still hadn't noticed.

"so, how you feeling today, Y/N?!" harry asked as he happily bounced around the console.

"fine" i mumbled bluntly.

"you excited for defence against the dark arts? ooh, maybe later we could-"

"harry! for once, can you please just read the room?!"

he stared at me blankly, waiting for an explanation.

"what?"

"for days i have been feeling like-like total shit! and you've been prancing around like a fucking idiot whilst i'm sitting here hurting!"

his face dropped, as did his body.

"Y/N, i'm sorry, i didn't notice"

"of course you didn't notice! you never look at me anymore, harry! my life is so difficult at the moment! you don't know how i feel, you don't know what i'm going through!"

"yes, i do!" he shouted back, taking me by surprise, "you have no idea what i go through every single day, Y/N! i have seen things you can't even imagine! i have dealt with more painful things anyone thought was possible! you know what i hear when i close my eyes? screaming! the screams of my own family, my own parents! do you know what that's like, Y/N?! do you?!"

my eyes widened, a single tear beginning to slide down my cheek.

"no, i don't know what that's like" i said quietly, pausing before my voice grew louder again, "but i do know how it feels to be ignored. how it feels to be isolated, even when i'm around people i feel so lonely! you've got to understand, harry. do you know what it's like to love someone? do you know what's it's like to have the one person you love ignore every feeling you have?!" i paused again, taking deep breaths to calm myself down, "and what about the person you love not loving you back?" my voice cracked.

his eyes gently glanced to my red, watery ones.

"i'm not doing this anymore, harry" i said softly, my voice shaking, "i'm going to bed"

"no...Y/N, no. i'm sorry. please, don't leave"

he stood for a few seconds before his weak knees buckled and he was left on the floor. he knew that i'd stop being his friend over this. he knew i was sensitive.

he was left on his knees, sobbing uncontrollably; i was shocked.

i'd never seen him so emotional before. he'd barely shown any emotion since i first spoke to him in our first year at hogwarts.

"Y/N" he begged, "please, you're my best friend. please, don't leave me. i need you, i-i love you"

"wh-what?"

"i love you. i'm so sorry if you feel like i ignore you, i don't do it on purpose" he took a deep breath, "maybe i was trying to push you away because i'm bad at feelings. i can't talk about emotions, Y/N. do you know how hard this is for me to admit?"

i smiled weakly, "yes, i do"

he sniffled, almost pleading me, "be my girlfriend?" he asked, his voice high and broken.

i couldn't leave him like that, in pieces on the floor. i just couldn't. i slowly walked to him.

my hands ran through his messy, brown as i kissed his forehead, right next to his scar.

his arms wrapped around my lower back, his entire body trembling.

i bent down to match his position on the floor, his arms gliding up my body as i went. they rested on my shoulders.

"i love you too, harry"

fred, george and hermione smiled solemnly, harry and i wrapped in each other's arms in a pile on the floor.