God I love you I love you so much that it hurts that when I see you talk about others i want to cry that I'm never on your mind but your always on mine I love you so much that I want to kiss you...that I want to touch you but I can't even when I feel so close I always know you take a step back why must you be so far away..I love you god I love you but I know you could never love me and god it hurts so much I want to keep your by my said forever I never want you to leave..but I know you will just like the others..I know that you only see me as a friend..as someone to talk to..I'm so happy that you can..but it hurts I want to stop hurting..I wanna leave I wanna stay away..but your words and voice always make me come back..god I love you so much that I cry and scream that my face is red and my eyes filed with tears..I want you to promise to never leave me..but that would be to much..you would hate me if I do that..if I touch you..god I love you so much that I'll stay even if it's killing me because even if I die and I'll never be special to you..but please just let me hold you just once..please stop going away I just want to be close to you because
I (hate)love you
..I hate what you do to me I hate that I'll never get to touch you I hate that you'll never see me like that so much so that I can't stand you that I cry and let my thoughts take over my mind letting it spill dark words about how much you hate me and how much you wish I wasn't here..I hate that I love you..that I'm willing to brake and kneel at your feet so you can be happy even if it's not with me..I hate that I have to sit back and watch you be with someone else..I hate that when I'm with you I never let myself be selfish..that I only let my mind fill with thoughts on what could be because your with another and I hate to see you upset..I hate that you'll never be mine..I hate that your so far away..I hate that you won't let me touch you..I hate..myself for trying to not cry and to be fine and stay happy at your said I hate that I'm so weak because of you that I only want you that I could never have you..I hate that I hurt myself that I let scars form on my palms and thighs so I won't touch you..I hate that I can't say a word to you..I hate that you say those things about yourself so in the end some else could hold you..I hate
That I love you so much..
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My random writings (and vents)
PoetryIt's just some story's that come to my mind or that I just want to tell or talk about I hope you like them some will be shorter then others-
