My random writings (and vents)

Your heartbeat

The sound of rain tapping at my window could never compare to the sound of your heartbeat..that sound it makes as you hold me close..as you promise to not leave me...it's beautiful because I know that your  still here that you'll say hello to me tomorrow that as are fingers interlock and twine that I know you won't leave that the sound of your heart tells me you won't go just yet..I felt your sorrow as you showed and told me what happened as you screamed and broke as you cried in my arms..my promise to you that day was to never let you go and be by your side..that is a promise I will keep till the day I die..when I first felt your heartbeat as when we met I thought for sure you hated me..I was wrong oh so wrong..I let my mind take over as you told me you could understand how I felt as you read what I had to say in my writing and words..you made me happy..when you broke down the next day I didn't know what to do I was scared..but I had to make you better I needed to I couldn't lose you when I got so easily attached..so I told you what I saw in your heart..how kind and sweet and amazing you were I was glad I could make you happy again..I like your smile..if only as the world hated me only a couple hours later you saw it my weakness as I cried and broke down..you embraced me you said I didn't have to be sorry for being human..thank you..I'm glad we get along I'm glad you could expect how weak I was I'm glad you come to me when your not doing ok..I'm glad you can see through my lies and the I'm fines..I'm glad I'm here to wipe away your tears my dear..I'm glad I know your name I'm happy I can trust you..you make me so happy..you care so much I truly don't deserve you not with how I am I'm nothing but a mask and yet you see perfectly through me..you let me speak and you show me affection soft affection..I'm soft to you I would never hurt you..if I hurt you I could never forgive myself as you mean so much to me..thank you for letting me be selfish in a world that isn't forgiving..you know that best don't you..but..I promise from now on my dear you won't have to face this hell we call life alone anymore because of that promise..I'll always be by your side..even if you tell and scream and cry for me to go smack or hit..I'll be here happily with open arms so that I can calm you down and make sure you take care of yourself...because I am great full of you of everything you do because my dear..you have given me something I haven't felt in so long..true love and happiness..thank you my dear for showing me how to be truly happy again..thank you for understanding me..