Adriana's Notebook

Chapter 18

I am so sorry for the extremely late update, my dear readers. I know I have wronged you guys in so many ways and failed my duties as a writer, but... I just couldn't write... there were so many things going on, and I feel like those things have taken something from me... I feel like I am not the same person anymore, and I am afraid to write, feeling like I will not live up to the standards that you, my dear readers, have set for me... It has been about a year since I last updated this book, and I apologize for that. I apologize in advance for this chapter, and I apologize again for making you guys wait this long. I hope you guys will forgive me...

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23 December

It pained me to write this entry, but I had to... I had to get all these feelings off my chest. It's been a few weeks since Xavier left to rescue his sister, and to say that I was worried about him would be an understatement. My thoughts kept drifting to him and if he was okay if he managed to get his sister back and if they were on their way home right now. I could not help but feel that Xavier was hiding something from me.

The day he left, he was acting differently. He avoided me as much as he could, and when I did manage to talk to him, he just gave me one-word answers. It angered me, and I tried to keep calm, but I just could not. I barged into the study and expected him to get angry or at least upset. Instead, I found him standing by the window, his back towards me, hands in pockets and lost in his thoughts.

My anger slowly subsided as I walked towards him. Only then did I realize his slumped shoulders and uneven breathing. I tapped his shoulder, and he turned to face me. I was surprised by his pained expression and felt my heart sink.

"Xavier... I-" I started, but he disrupted me by hugging me.

"I am sorry for the way I was acting earlier..." His voice was merely above a whisper. "I am just really stressed about everything, but I promise I will make it up to you when I get back, but now I really have to go." He pulled away and looked me in the eye.

"I love you, and I always will." He said and kissed me. I was overwhelmed by his actions, and all I could do was kiss him back. His kiss was different from the rest like he didn't want to kiss me but had to. It was rushed, and when we pulled away, I couldn't help but be suspicious of him.

"Is there something you are not telling me, Xavier?" I asked him, studying his face for any signs of him hiding something.

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "There is a lot I am not telling you, my love."

"Tell me." I was a little hurt by him keeping secrets, and I did not appreciate it. I did not hide anything from him; in fact, he is the only secret that I have. I am putting everything at risk just for him, and he still dares to keep secrets from me.

He sighed again. "There is a lot that can go wrong with my plan, my love, and I am anxious, but I don't want to worry you because knowing that you will be waiting for me when I return, I know my plan will be a success." His words were sincere, and I smiled sweetly at him.

Why do I still feel like you are lying to me, Xavier?

I pushed the thought away. "Don't worry, my love, I know you can do this." I smiled, and he grinned in return.

"I love you." He smiled.

"I love you too." I smiled back, and we kissed.

He left after that, and I haven't heard from him ever since. To make matters worse, I could not ask anyone about him besides Alexander. He did not know anything about Xavier's plans.

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My emotions were all over the place, and my family was just adding to it. My father kept asking if I was okay, and I had to lie and say that I was. Leandro was furious because he knew that Xavier was the cause of my worries, and it took a lot of pleading for him not to tell father.

I cried that night. I cried until no tears fell. I hated Xavier for putting me through this, but I knew that I could never hate him. I wished that he was normal and had a regular 9 to 5 job, no dangerous and illegal work—just plain, simple Xavier.

Maybe we would have been married by now, thinking about finally having a baby. Instead of that, I am married to his brother, and we both are cheating on each other. How the hell did my life get to this? The weird thing is that I would never change a thing about what has happened.

A sudden knock on my door drew me out of my thoughts.

"Adriana!" Alex called from the other side of my locked door.

I quickly hid my notebook and unlocked the door. "How can I help you, Dexter?" I smirked, and he narrowed his eyes at me.

"I warned you about that name." He said through gritted teeth. "I don't like it one bit."

I rolled my eyes. "Don't get so worked up, Alex. I'm just playing." I smiled innocently, and he sighed.

"I don't have much time; I am late for a dinner meeting with some potential investors. Please be careful. I am not expecting anyone, so don't answer the door, Sven and Ezio are outside, and Mario will be checking up on you every half an hour." He said seriously, and I nodded.

"Don't worry, Alex, I will be fine," I said reassuringly. Yes, everyone is on high alert because news got out that Oliver was in New York. They are not taking any chances, including Alexander.

"Just please be careful, okay?" He said and hugged me. "I'm not so afraid of Uncle Sal, but Xavier will kill me and have my head mounted on the wall if anything were to happen to you." He said, and I laughed.

Alex has always been able to make me laugh, even in the darkest of times. I know I argue with him a lot, but I really would kill for him, and I know he would too. I have 4 older brothers, but Alexander is like my fifth older brother.

He left after that but not before making sure that I was safe. I stayed in my room, and when I got bored, I went to the living room and watched tv.

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It was about 2 in the morning when I woke up; I didn't realize that I fell asleep on the couch. Groggily, I woke up and stretched my stiff limbs—the disadvantage of falling asleep on the couch.

The room was dark, the only source of light coming in from the city lights outside. I let out a big yawn, and I got up from the couch. I made my way to the kitchen, but a figure standing by the door stopped in my tracks.

I panicked and reached for the lamp to switch it on. It turns out it was just the coat rack.

"Great, now I am seeing things," I mumbled and continued to the kitchen.

Just before I could enter the kitchen, I heard a loud crash coming from the living room. I was about to turn around and see what happened. I was hit over the head with what felt like a ton of bricks.

I stumbled back, and before I could pass out, I heard someone chuckle. 

"I got you." The voice whispered before everything turned black.

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This was supposed to be a really long chapter, but I decided to split it up. A quick heads up, the next chapter is going to be our last, and I know you are going to hate for it, but I do hope you realize why I decided to end it the way I did. I will come back and rewrite this book because I don't like the way things played out. So stay tuned 😊

Love you lots like jelly tots

MistyMe15

xoxo