inevitable [seventeen woozi]

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dear jihoonie,

i'm very grateful that i met you. i really don't know what to say and i'm crying as i'm writing this because i can't believe that i have a boyfriend as awesome as you. anyway, i'm running out of time because it's currently three in the morning and i want to sleep.

also, even if we don't want it, i'm literally running out of time.

remember the grocery store painting? i never got to tell you about it. well, i did, but i don't know if you figured it out already.

i told you about me and my mom and how we were sitting on a bench and i told her about building things on the concrete space that was our view at the time... the grocery store is the building that's there now. i wasn't the one who put it there but, hey, i said there'll be a store and boom. that's where i met you.

i made that painting as my last output because that time i spent with my mom is something i won't ever forget. i felt absolutely empty during those times and there was nothing else i thought about but being successful in order to help my family. who knew they'd all eventually leave me before i could even have a job?

and, who knew i'd be gone before i could even get one?

nevertheless, this is how it's supposed to be. we live and we die. death is inevitable. but, you know what else is? love.

i love you so, so much. i love you very much, lee jihoon. so much more than my family's record of hospital expenses and the amount of hair we have on our bodies. i love you and i hate you for making me feel this way.

you mean the world to me and i care so much about you. i love you, jihoon. seungcheol, jeonghan, joshua, jun, soonyoung, wonwoo, mingyu, seokmin, minghao, seungkwan, vernon, chan, and i's Jihoon. our jihoon.

when i'm gone, i hope this letter finds you. i hope you manage to keep all my artworks, including the ones i made with your face in it, and treasure it forever. i love you so much, please don't ever forget.

i don't know what else to say because i feel like i've told you everything i have to. by now, you already know everything about me. i do have a diary so, if you want, you can read it. there's a bunch of embarrassing things on there and it'll be interesting. you can also use it, too. i didn't write much so there are still a ton of pages.

i think this is it.

i love you so much, my jihoonie. i hope we see each other in the next life! thank you for everything. thank you so much and i love you more. don't ever forget.

literally yours,

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