If I should stay
I would only be in your way
And so I'll go but I know
I'll think of you each step of the way
I thought I'd never live again or move forward from what I've seen .My life completely changed and it was a new beginning a fresh start .
Bitter sweet memories
That's all I'm taking with me
Goodbye please don't cry
Cause we both know that I'm not
What you need
I'd start my day in tears and it would end in tears . I had no hope for life , I mean why would I even live again I'd rather die . Abandoned , alone and never human again is what I felt. Void and a deep whole inside my heart , that strong empty feeling made my should darker .
I hope life , treats you kind
And I hope that you have all
That you ever dreamed of
I wish you joy
And I wish you happiness
But above all this I wish you love
I hated life . I hated the sun . I hated any walking human being . I hated living . I hated my soul . I hated the words its going to be okay
Okay!!! What do they mean fucken okay .
Okay is when you see your loved ones everyday
Okay is when you appreciate the people surrounding you
Okay is when you dont hate the sun and never miss the darkness
Okay is when you smile always and never shed a tear
Okay is when you share laughter and happiness with your people
Okay is when nobody dies and they still there
Okay is when you never wish the dead to rise
Okay is when you never think of when you gonna die
Okay is when your happy and never think of more
Okay is when your okay but I'm never okay!
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
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"Ms Smith do you keep on blaming yourself ?"
5minutes
"Does it get harder everyday?"
Silence
"Had an option what would you choose "
Nothing
"What was written in that letter?"
Sigh
"Vanessa I know this hard for you right now and a shrink won't make sense ,but talking helps . Your traumatized and need help . You need to empty the anger, sadness, grudge , frustration your holding in side . The guilt , everything it needs to emotionally come out . I'm not saying forget about them but I'm just saying talk to me . Maybe it would help a little ."
Ignored , she leaves the room
"Mr Smith ive been trying everything I can . She doesn't talk , hell she doesn't respond to everything I say ."
"What am I suppose to do with her ? I mean its been months, she doesn't come out of that room , she screams at night , she barely eats . Dammit she hardly breaths ."
"I'm afraid Mr Smith . Nothing I or we can do can help . She can only help her self."
"But how Kara!!"
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Romance"The name is Nathan and you" l swallowed hard looking at his blue mesmerizing eyes, gosh I could swallow him up right now .Suddenly his loud lough startles me "What's funny" " The swallowing part" "oh" I felt my self turn red like a tomato only...
