3Rd person pov:
Oct 17, tuesDrew: hey, are you okay?-Drew tapped Billie when she saw her hands shaking hard
Drew was Billie's only friend in between so many classmates. They for sure were not as close as Billie and Zoe were but they were still friends
Billie: yeah it's just my anxiety-Billie whispired back so the teacher wouldn't hear them
Teacher: yes miss Drew?-the teacher asked turning around when Drew called him
Drew: Billie isn't feeling good, can we go to the nursery room?-the teacher gave Billie a quick look before nodding her head-come on-Drew said holding Billie's hand
Billie: you didn't have to do that-Billie said
Drew: you couldn't just stand there but come on, let's go to the bathroom instead-she said as they walked towards the bathroom-do you want me to get you water?-Drew asked closing the bathroom cabin door
Billie: no, it won't help anyways-Billie sighed trying to calm down
Drew: do you want to talk about it?-Drew asked caresssing Billie's back-it's because of your boyfriend?
Billie: I think I might be pregnant-Billie whispired, making Drew's eyes wide
Drew: what?
Billie: a week before he left I started throwing up, my period didn't appear last month or this one-she said-besides some other things that I don't know if it's because he left or a pregnancy symptom
Drew: well you need to get a pregnancy test, my mom works at the pharmacy, I can get you one if you want
Billie: you really-
Drew: I really don't have to, I know-Drew giggled-but I want to
Billie: thank you Drew-Billie said turning around and giving her friend a hug
Drew: I'll bring it tomorrow and we can meet here after lunch?-she suggested seeing Billie nod-okay, I'll let you breath by yourself for a while now-she caressed Billie's back before leaving
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Oct 18, wedDrew: who-
Billie: oh don't worry she can stay-Billie said pointing to Zoe-Zoe meet Drew and Drew meet Zoe-she said seeing the girls smile at each other
Drew: did you girls make sure no one is in here?
Billie: yeah, it's empty-Billie said before Drew nodded and took out her school back pack, taking the pregnancy test out and handing it to Billie
Billie walked inside one of the cabins and peed on it before getting out and leaving the test in the sink while she washed her hand
Zoe: all right, it's been 10 minutes-Zoe looked at her phone and then to Drew and Billie
Billie: I don't have the courage, you go-she said to Zoe
Zoe: all right-Zoe said walking towards the sink and looking at the test before turning around-positive, 15 weeks-she said making Billie's eyes wide
Billie: 15 weeks?-she walked towards Zoe looking at the test
Drew: how many months are 15 weeks?-Drew asked walking towards them as well
Zoe: almost 7 months I think-Zoe said
Billie: 7 mon- it's almost 4 months-she corrected
Drew: what happens now?
Billie: what happens now? My life is destroyed-Bilie said putting her hands over her head and sitting on the floor
Zoe: what happens now is that I'm gonna call Brandon
Billie: Zoe no!-she said
Zoe: you're pregnant with his baby, you can't just not tell him
Billie: nothing's gonna change, I ruined my life, I don't have to drag him along
Zoe: so you're just gonna keep it from him?
Billie: I can't tell him and I won't either-she said
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Mar 15, thursMaggie: Billie-
Billie: I don't want to, I can't-Billie said slighly pushing her mom away
Maggie: you just gave birth to your first daughters, you'll regreat in the future if you don't hold them now
Billie: I don't care mom-Billie said keeping her eyes in the big window in her hospital room
Maggie: okay-Maggie sighed before caressing Billie's shoulder and leaving the room
Billie: I swear I'd stop breathing, if it would benefit you, if that's all I had to do-Billie sang playing her ukulele-I'll give up everything, because I'm in love with you, yes, I'm in love with you-she sighed letting go of the ukulele and slowly walking towards the big window, opening and looking down thinking if she would die if she jumped or if she would just get injured. She thought about it, jumping was the best option, either way she would have what she wanted. To hurt herself. To die-damnit mom-she whispered feeling angry at the fact that she couldn't jump because Maggie was the only thing in her head
How she would be so destroyed if Billie killed herself. Maggie has always made it clear that Billie was the light of her life, her reason to smile and be thankful for life everyday. Billie didn't want to take that away from her mother, her happyness
Zoe: what are you doing?-Zoe suddently came in seeing Billie next to the window. She immediately ran and closed the window, pulling Billie in a tight hug as she knew what was in Billie's head while looking at that window
Billie: I don't know how to do this without him, how to be happy, how to breath, how to enjoy life, he was my life-she cried on her bestfriend's shoulder
Zoe: and you are Maggie's life, you are Patrick's life, Finneas' life, you're my life Billie-Zoe said holding Billie's face up-now you have two daughters and they should be your life, Brandon's gone and if he truly loved you he's going to be back by august, while he doesn't, you have to keep going-she said pulling Billie back in the hug as she just cried
That's all she could do since Brandon left, cry and wish for a truck to run over her
She wasn't the same. She didn't dress the same, talk the same, smiled the same way, even her grades went from A-'s and B+'s to D-'s and F+'s
She was a mess. She lost her reason to shine and be happy 24/7
Ever since they met a few years earlier, he was the reason she was the bright girl she was. Not because she wanted to be perfect for him. But because he inspired the best in her
He was the reason she wrote her first of many songs, the reason she started to draw, dance and have more passion in life
So when he was gone, it was like her whole world just turned black and white.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{A/n: this was just a flashback chapter from part of what Billie went through when Brandon left. And yes, there will be a chapter with Brandon's flashbacks as well
Alsoo, things are about to go down the hill in about 2-3 chapter🤭
But don't worry it's not completely down the hill
Yet
ANYWAYS BILLIE LOOKS LIKE BARBIE😭😭😭 MAMAS LOOKS GOOD IN E V E R Y T H I N G
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My Secret
RomanceBillie and brandon met at freshman year when they were both 14 when brandon moved to cali w his mom after she got divorcieded w brandons father. A year later, at sophomore year, being now 15 they started dating but broke up two years later at senior...