Hiding The Pain || MonoShin [BOOK 1]

Chapter 14 - The Dark Side

He was too far gone.

Drifting like the wind through life, the days whizzing by like they held no meaning.

Because they didn't, not anymore.

He sat at a window, watching the rays of sun slip through it and illuminate the white floor.

Had it been in a different context, he would have admired it, and maybe even smiled at the beautiful scene.

Now, he just looked at it with blank eyes, smile nowhere in sight.

He was waiting for Shigaraki to call him to the lower floor of their hideout. They were carrying out a heist, stealing some piece of paper from a museum. Shigaraki said it was crucial for the League, so Monoma agreed to come with them.

Toga had opposed his decision, and Monoma knew why. His mental state had been a bit unstable the past month, and she was scared he'd do something horrible. The only thing that had got her to let him go was when Shigaraki countered with; 

"What do you think he'll do if we leave him here alone?"

She had kept quiet after that, before conceding. She still said that she would supervise Monoma, which Shigaraki hadn't objected to.

So now he was waiting for them to get ready to begin.

He couldn't go in his hero suit; too risky they had said, besides, he didn't even have it with him, it was still at U.A. Instead, they made him wear a form fitting body - suit, though it had padding all over it to absorb kinetic energy from hits and reflect it back unto the opponent. The padding was a bit heavy, but Monoma knew he would be able to move quickly enough with it on.

One month couldn't do that much damage to him.

"Everyone! It's time! Get to the garage!" Shigaraki called, and Monoma got off the window ledge. He looked at the setting one last time, and almost, almost allowed himself to think of his past, before shaking his head and walking to the requested area.

The 'garage' was actually an unoccupied and empty floor in the hideout, and was probably meant to be an old underground parking lot that was left unfinished. In the middle of this space was a white van, already filled with people.

"Where are the rest of the League?" Monoma walked up to Shigaraki and asked, no real curiosity evident in his tone.

"They're all on different missions." Shigaraki answered, before waving a small communication device that he inserted in his ear. "However, Kurogiri will be on standby in case we require a backup plan."

Monoma gave a bored nod and entered the back of the van. Toga was sitting there across from him, and she stopped cleaning her knife to give Monoma a small, empathetic smile. Monoma would normally have hated those looks, but he knew it wasn't made from pity, no. It was made from experience.

She had done the exact same thing anyway. Hurt the ones she loved, running away from them and ending up alone.

It felt a little nice to know that he wasn't the only one that had suffered like this, no matter how shallow that thought might be.

"You'll get through this." was all she said, but Monoma knew those words held more meaning than she let on.

The sound of a van door opening and closing was heard, before another one followed soon after.

"Oi, we're heading out now. If you need to use the bathroom, too bad. Pee your pants for all I care. Spinner, let's go."

The van moved out into the shining sunlight, and it reminded Monoma of how long it had been since he last went outside. He had cooped himself up inside the hideout, and would probably have been suffering of Vitamin D Deficiency, had it not been for the windows. But when it came down to it, he was well enough to do the mission, and that was all that mattered.