Amnesia (BTS's Jungkook Fanfiction)

- Amnesia 10 -

While being deep into thought I suddenly heard Jungkook's voice: "Katy? Katy, where are you?" Was I wrong or did he sound a bit scared? "Over here", I answered. The fence's door swung open and he looked at me. He did look a bit scared but relaxed as he saw me. "Thank god, I thought you were gone." I was surprised: "Where should I be headed to?" "I don't know. I just... was scared for a second. Scared of having to let you go..." He came over while talking. "You won't", I said and took his offered hand. He pulled me on my feet and right into his arms. He hugged me tightly only for a second or so but long enough to make me understand. And I felt that I made my decision.

When we left Jacob, I thanked him once again and looking at him I knew that he felt how I made my decision. He said: "Good night to both of you. Katy... You will be alright. Trust me." Jungkook put his arm around me and lead me into his garden again. "You had a good talk with him?", he asked. I nodded. "I...", I began and stopped. But then I again felt that I needed to do this. Jacob was right. I would be alright by choosing this way. I looked at him: "I made my decision. Like – what to do now." I saw how fear and excitement came on his handsome face while we stopped walking and now faced each other. I smiled and carefully put my hand on his cheek. "So?" His voice trembled slightly as he asked this. He took my hands. "Would you mind me staying?", I asked. I could literally see how he processed my question. His expression changed to being surprised, then to pure happiness: "You wanna stay? Really? With me?" I nodded, smiling brightly and said: "Well only if you don't mind..." "Don't mind? I would mind if you didn't!", he answered. I laughed but when I looked at him, I stopped. His eyes were looking so lovely at me. And I knew what he thought. But I also realized that he wouldn't go the first step. "Somewhat a gentleman", I thought smiling before leaning in closer. And as we kissed, I forgot everything around me. I felt electrized. Everything that reached my brain was his one hand on my back, holding me closely, the other running through my hair, his muscular body underneath my hands and his lips on mine – careful at first but getting passionately after finally getting the kiss he had waited for so long.

When the kiss was over however, I realized that my face was burning. Good thing it was dark already or else everyone probably would have mistaken me for a tomato. The usual mischievous smile came on Jungkook's face. "If that is what happens when I pick you up after you visited Jacob, I will have to do it more often." I laughed but then got serious again and said: "You should thank him. Because of his words I was able to make this decision. He told me that maybe you need me as much as I do. I didn't believe him at first but when you searched for me, I understood. I understood that you somehow need me and also how much I really need you. Furthermore, he is also right on this: I need a new start." Jungkook looked at me for a long time and said: "I will thank him." Then he pulled me in close again and while I was enchanted by his so well-known, comforting scent and fascinating by the strength I could feel from all of his body I heard him say: "This will be the best new start I ever am able to witness." I giggled and, in my mind, agreed.

Years later I would find out Jacob's story. How he left the woman he loved because he was too afraid of causing her troubles. Her – The daughter of an influential and very prestige-focused politician. And Jacob – from a poor family that had to spend every penny wisely. He left her without a word. Told himself he would have to make money first before even thinking of getting her. But when he had some it was too late. She married somebody else while he was gone working hard to get at least the slightest chance of impressing her family. "I got money", he said, "But it was too late to get the girl. She thought I wouldn't come back at all. If only, I thought. If only. Two words I never wanted to say when talking about my life. But now I do. I hoped you would decide right. I hoped Jungkook would finally lay down his cool mischief and show how honest he was all along. But saying it out loud – No. Some things people must figure out themselves. I might have spoken up if you told me you would leave that night. But from all your words I already knew that all you needed was your head to get convinced by your heart. So I trusted you. Seeing you hugging afterwards however, I knew your heart won."

But as happy as I was about this decision – and Jungkook obviously as well; he sometimes even jumped around the living room like a little kid –I soon figured how hard it was to let Leo go home again. And leaving my old life behind. What gave me comfort though, was the thought that whatever happened – she wouldn't leave me. And I wouldn't as well. Like this we one day sat in the living room and talked. JK was off to work. When we heard him come back, he was talking to someone. I recognized the voice and Leo also seemed to do so. And we were right – Suddenly Taehyung stood in the living room and froze as he saw Leo. He wanted to turn around but there was his friend standing, smiling widely while blocking the way. He blushed, turned around towards us again, mumbled a shy hello and went into the kitchen. Jungkook followed him but stopped at the couch, gave me heartfelt kiss and said: "I brought Taehyung with me. Hope you guys don't mind." We both shook our heads and he went on: "But I guess I should rather look after him now. I might have forgotten to tell him about Leo..." He smiled his mischievous smile and as I turned back to my friend, I realized that she was as flustered as Tae about his appearance. But before we could properly get back into our talk from earlier JK again looked out of the kitchen and asked: "Hey, honey, would it be ok if Tae stays for dinner. He says he wants to get to know the beautiful woman in the living room closer – Hey, stop hitting me!" I laughed. "Sure. I guess the beautiful woman wouldn't mind as well...", I answered. Turning back to Leo I asked: "Or am I wrong?" She shook her head, still blushing. I smiled knowingly. "I guess", I thought, "I am to see her more often than I might expect..."