Lost In Forever

04.|Collide

So here we are back to the present, slowly waking up and hearing the beeping of the respiratory machine and seeing the tube connected to my arm flowing with blood. Slowly remembering as to what led me to the hospital and yet starting to feel ashamed of what I made them go through but still somewhat wondering if I really left.

"Never scare us again like that mijo" says my mother. "I get what you did, but your father is only trying to look out for you my love, he only wants what's best for you as do I."

I wait a few minutes letting her words sink in and trying to find the right words to say but nothing comes out except the tears rolling down my face.

" Ouh baby"she says in a sentimental voice and makes her way over to my little hospital bed and wipes away my tears. " It's okay" she says, "We'll go through whatever this is and you're going to be fine okay baby", I slowly nod my head.

Finally having the courage I ask where dad is she sympathetically smiles and says, "He didn't want to wake you up so he left a few minutes ago".

I look at her with sadness in my eyes and she says that he is really sorry that he let me do this but he was just looking out for me. I quietly nod showing her that I understand. That night my mother asks the doctor if she can sleep in my room as visiting hours are over. With being the prime minister's wife her request is easily approved and that night she sleeps with me cuddled up in my little bed.

The following day sheeaves after 8 as she had some errands to run. Later in the afternoon Erin, Shawn, Willy and Sammy all show up to my room.

"Seems like you really enjoy being in hospital beds", chimes Willy while Sammy quickly swats him on his shoulder.

"What!", say Willy and a laugh escapes from my mouth. They all look at me and laugh along. After the laughing the all surround my bed and say in unison, "We miss you Alex" which not only makes me laugh but them too.

After our laughter we spend hours talking, laughing and planning what we're going to do and I can't express how grateful I felt as to how they didn't bring up what brought me to the hospital. The boys then decide that it's time they left to give us girls some time to catch up. We watch as they exit the room and once the door is closed Erin is the first to start with the gossip.

"So there's this super cute new guy at school and  Omg if I didn't have a boyfriend I would've totally jumped him" which makes me giggle.
"But she's right, he's really hot even Pamela tried but he like completely ignored her which was pretty funny to watch", Sammy says.
"Well does this hunk have a name then?", I ask also caught up in the drama.

"Well sadly no", says Erin. I give her a puzzled look and she quickly adds, "I mean yes he does have a name, but we just don't know it yet," which slowy puts my mind at ease, I mean who wouldn't have a name that you just be plain out weird.

The girls continue updating me with the latest gossip around school until the boys come to get the girls as visiting hours are over. They say their goodbyes and then I'm left on my own. I call out to Enrique who has been one of the bodyguards since I can remember and also Yolanda's husband. Honestly Yolanda and Enrique are kind of like my second parents, my family when my family leaves.

He quickly makes his way into the room and ask him to get my ipod which he does efficiently. He tells me that if I need anything he is just right outside the door. I thank him and he heads for his station. I put my earphones on and settle for "Let you down" by NF and slowly drift to sleep.