taes anatomy

chapter 2

no one pov

did you ever look at something and you mind just goes... blank?

sweat poured down jins face as he started compressions for the thirteenth time in that E.R. Taehyung stood there, staring blankly at the situation unfold infront of his eyes.

"taeil, push one of epi!" jin ordered.

"yes doctor"

its like your mind mentally boycotts itself from processing the image.

"starting compressions again. someone bring in the defibrillator!"

jimin came frantically rushing into the room and gasped upon seeing the tremendous amount blood on jins lab coat, aswell as taehyungs arms and body.

"oh my god! what happened here?"

so instead, you stand there, looking at the object like some kind of fool, not knowing what do do with it, or think about it.

"doctor, shes coding. shes losing too much blood."

"okay, lets start blood transfusion. taeil, hand a volume of o- and lets move her up to surgery."

you look like a doll, a lifeless doll. having served no purpose. as the whole world keeps moving forward, passing you by... you remain still, looking at the same god darned image.

2 days later...

jin knocked softly on the door of the hospital room and entered, holding a black leather file in his arm. he set the file down on the table, and looked over at the sleeping blonde, resting on a chair beside his mother.

the poor boy had dark rings around his eyes, due to lack of sleep and the swelling in his eyes hadnt gone down either. his skin was pale and his lips were dry due to the lack of nutritional intake. the poor boy hadnt had a decent meal in three days.

just as jin was about to leave, taehyung stirred in his seat and awakened.

"im so sorry, i-"

"no, jin. its fine, whats up?"

jin cast his gaze from taehyung , up to the heart monitor above naris head. her heart was weak, her organs were shutting down. everything was just going downhill at that point. unfortunately, there was nothing that hospitals could do for her anymore.

"taehyung..." jin called. taehyung looked at the older eagerly.

"do you... do you know what a healthcare proxy is?"

the next day...

"so youre saying that there... absolutely nothing you can do now?" taehyung croaked, desperately looking into jins eyes. jin lowered his head and swallowed the knott in his throat.

"im so sorry, taehyung."

"but what about- what about the surgeries? you can do the surgeries right? theres still hope... right?"

"taehyung, her organs are shutting down, and as a result of that, her heart and lungs are giving in. thats why shes going into cardiac arrest almost three times a day."

"fix it." taehyung demanded heavily.

"taehyung theres nothing i can-"

"yes you can! youre a fucking doctor so dont tell me you cant!" taehyung bursted into tears in the middle of the hallway, sinking down to knees. jin stared at the boy, working very hard to control his emotion, not to cry.

2 days later...

"youre asking me to sign a what?" taehyung asked in disbelief.

" a DNR." Jin repeated, handing taehyung the papers.

"you seriously cant be asking me to sign a form that voluntarily allows my mother to die, can you?"

"taehyung, what you have to understand is that everytime we resuscitate her, her heart takes more strain and she becomes in more pain." jin explained. taehyung shot his heat up at the doctor.

"More pain?" he gasped. the room went silent for a moment, as taehyung looked over at his mother, laying on that hospital bed. how dare he add on to her suffering?"

"no, i dont want to sign that DNR..." he looked up at jin, teary eyed. "lets do this thing now. i want the machines removed."

jin looked at taehyung hesitantly, confused with his sudden change of heart.

"are you sure you dont want to think about this? this is a tremendous decision to make." jin explained.

taehyung cast his gaze over to his mothers weakened figure in that hospital room.

"how could i possibly go to sleep, knowing the hell my mother must be going through, being hooked up to all those machines and procedures. how could i possibly- and that because of my fear of being all alone in this world?" taehyung gasped, trying to hold back on the tears.

"that would make me the most selfish person in the world."
a fat tear tear rolled down taehyungs cheek as he rested his hand on the window through which he looked at his mother.

the hallway was quiet as the two two stood there. jin looked at the boy with admiration, even in the midst of the situation.

Taehyung was growing up. he was maturing into a beautiful young man. in some way, hin was extremely proud of the young man taehyung was becoming.

It was just a pity that this was the way he had to mature.

"jin, im ready. give me the papers."

**//chapter 2\\**

Okay so... double update today because i wanna get the depressedness over with!!!

Hellooo!!!

Hope you all are doing well.

Today i found a pigeon with a broken leg and i didnt wanna tell my friends about it because theyre gonna say i injured the poor thing.

I have mean friends:(

Vote and comment if i should repirt thembto my priest coz ill gladly do so :3

Anywayyyyy, see yall in the next chapter