Attack With A Ghost ▪︎AOT Fanfic▪︎

A Hero's First Kill [14]

It's okay. It's okay to be scared. But never I tell you, never lose hope in what hasn't already been lost yet - Lorenzo Lang.

My fathers solemn words casted in my head. I couldn't feel a thing. I felt empty. I have to remind myself that I'm worth living. Stop using the same damn excuse Phoebe.

Feel something...anything.

Phoebe opened her eyes from the light pause in time. She takes one more glance of Jean and walks away looking at the town that was once her home, now a deserted town with naked titans roaming the street. She remembered this street. This was where Mr. Salvatore held his market

I've never seen Mr. Salvatore after that day. I wonder if he was okay?

" Are there any citizen casualties?" Phoebe asked only standing a few feet away from the roof bar. She held her hand to her chest and peered over Trost. She could see what she assumed to be titans in the distance.

Her eyes winded at the creature. They were giant humanoid creatures. Each one of them crawled over the HQ like brutes.

That's... that's what titans look like...

" The evacuation was successful." Mikasa answered. Mikasa... how was she handling this. What was Mikasa going to do without Eren? How was she so static.. Was she concealing her pain? Is she hiding it?

If the evacuation was truly successful, then her mom must be alive. That gave Phoebe a hint of reassurance. She didn't want her mother to leave yet, not before they could work things out.

" Then what are you waiting for?" Phoebe asked, walking back to the group. " The titans seemed to be focused on HQ. Why haven't you all gone over the wall yet?"

" We're out of gas and our blades aren't replenished. The supply depot lost their will to fight. And I can understand why. But they abandoned their duty to supply us, barricading themselves inside HQ. And of course, titans have swarmed the place which means we can't get the gas ourselves."

"Damn you supply depot. You candy asses." Phoebe mutters under her breath. Phoebe checked her own gear to see that it was fully reloaded and had a filled amount of gas. She was able to escape. Phoebe decided not to mention this and stay quiet.

She had enough time to rest. It was now time to fight.

" Reiner. Do we move out?" Annie asked. Reiner only kept a grimace face and said, " Not yet. We have to let them gather up first."

" It's no use. There's too many of them. I don't think any of us are going to survive this. I've come to accept my pretending demise. I just... wanted my death to mean something." Marco spoke.

The place felt silent. The only thing you could hear were the cadet's silent weeps. Phoebe looked down onto her full tanks and sighed a small breath. She wasn't leaving alone. She refuses too. Being the only one wouldn't mean anything.

All the courage, bravery, determination- was it all worth it? Or was it just a stupid thing fours friends thought they could get pass by. Why had they thought they would be the ones to change the world.

And the sea... Eren never got to see the sea. Their dream was broken, already useless. Phoebe's stomach twisted in the thought of her fallen colleagues. She felt bad for them. She'd felt bad that their dreams and ambitions were taken away that easily.

Most of all, Phoebe felt unpleasant that she had a dream.

" Marco? If we eliminate or bypass the titans at HQ, we can refuel our gear, allowing us to get back over the wall. Is that assessment correct?"