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𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 1

𝐷𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑟𝑦, 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦. 𝑀𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑦𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑒 𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑘 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑟𝑜𝑤. 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑠𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑙 𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑚 𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘, 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑝 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 9-5 𝑗𝑜𝑏 𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑒. 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑠 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡, ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑠𝑜𝑙𝑢𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑁𝑂 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑠.

I lay on my bed writing my daily diary entry. The summer heat has been making me too tired to do anything.

My mom barges into my room. "Get your ass up and go attend your fucking college classes now. I'm not wasting my money on education for you if you're not gonna fucking go."

I get a whiff of alcohol... what a surprise.

"Then don't pay for it. Use your money for beer and alcohol, i'm sure you'll get REAL far in life" I say with a sarcastic tone. I promise i'm not a bitch, my mom just gets on my bad side 24/7.

'Why do i still live with her anyway? There is nothing for me in this stupid place. That's it, i'm out of here.' 

I stand up ignoring everything my mom is going on about, grab a bag off my messy room floor, and head over to my dresser.

"What do you think you're doing, y/n?" she says in a furious tone. I ignore her and continue to chuck clothes into the bag. I then walk over to my bathroom, pushing past my mom. I can see her anger building up inside of her but i ignore it.

After i'm done i grab my wallet and walk out the door. I hop into my car and situate myself. Here comes my mom with tears running down her cheeks.

"I promise y/n... I'll stop nagging on you to do your homework, I'll go easy on you, I'll stop drinking and clean up my act. I'LL DO ANYTHING!" my mom pleads.

"You said this last time, mom. I can't keep living like this. I'm leaving and I don't know where i'm going or how long i'll be gone-" she grabs hold of my arm and pulls me close enough for her to whisper in my ear. " When your dad left us, we agreed that we'd always stick together no matter what. You can't leave me too, y/n. I don't know what i'd do without you."

'She's trying to guilt-trip me... don't give in, y/n'. I rip my arm away from her and slam my door. "I said that when I was 9 mom, I'm 22 now."

I put my key in the ignition and back onto the street. My mom is standing there in complete and utter shock. I watch her fall to her knees and cover her face through the mirror of my car.

I look back into the road in front of me, making sure that this is really what I want to do.

I take a deep breath as my house slowly disappears out of my vision behind me.

—————Author's notes—————
okkkk that was the first chapter!!
sorry it was a little intense and sort of long but i'm on break right now and had a lot of time to come up with ideas!
I might not be updating as much but i will try my best!
also i really hope you enjoyed this first chapter :))
I love you don't forget to hydrate <3