So young, So damaged

The Knowing

a/n: i'm not happy with this chapter lol. but please don't forget to vote. sending love and kisses! stay safe & healthy! mask up! please get vaccinated if you can!

!! TW!! : Mentions of EATING DISORDER, INSOMNIA, PTSD, etc.

July 6th, 1996
Juniper's POV

I've done almost nothing since the incident at Diagon Alley. All i've done is stay at the manor, I spent most of my time in Narcissa's library or in her garden.

I didn't spend time with mum or Binx, mostly just Lynx. He was quiet, stayed a good boy and laid next to me, never bothering me.

Of course they would check up on me, ask me if I was hungry, if I was feeling alright, if I wanted to rest. I would just reply with a nod or shrug of my shoulders.

The Dark Lord hasn't been a problem recently, ever since his most loyal followers got captured or got killed, he has been laying low.

It was different, I was on my toes the whole time. I made sure to keep my mark covered even though it was a very warm summer.

One of the reasons why I stayed up at night was so I could cool off, step out of the long sleeve and enjoy the cool summer night breeze.

Draco always bothered me about wearing my long sleeves, I tried my best to have good excuses.

I don't talk much, I am like a singing on vocal rest but with no reason. Sure there are some conversations here and there, but it only lasts a couple of minutes.

But today was the day, the day that the group will see me. This will be their first time seeing me since my father's death and Lucius's incarceration, when I picked up Draco from Hogwarts.

They sent letters, a lot of them, checking up on me since they weren't allowed to come here. I heard Theo at the door one day, heard that he had to argue with his father to leave the house, but mum never let him inside to see me.

Blaise sent some letter's talking about how low my magic was from the feeling of his ring, I didn't care though.

All of the letters sent from Theo, Blaise, Pansy, Daphne, and Tracey, were shoved into a shoe box in the back of the closet.

I read them of course, I'm not rude, I spent most of my nights reading them. I wasn't mad that I couldn't see them, after all, I didn't want to see anyone. I still don't.

Mum and Narcissa talked to one of the doctors, they were told that I need to be reintroduced to friends, so I can get better. I guess that is the reason they are coming over today.

"Don't you want to change out of your pajamas before they arrive?" Draco asked me from the door frame.

He has been hovering over me, like a father. I let him sleep in his room now though, it was the only way to make him shut up. Actually, the nights I can't sleep I lie on the floor with him.

He tries to help me with the nightmares, I can't tell if he actually helps or not. I have seen a change in them.

"I think I'll just stay in this outfit." I stared into the mirror, my mascara clumped from the week before.

As I said earlier, I don't do much. I don't bathe, I don't do anything. It's nasty, I know but it's nothing a refreshing spell can't do.

"Come on Juni, you've been in your pajamas for a whole week. Change please." he pleaded as he was wearing a white shirt with some black slacks.

I rolled my eyes as I dragged my feet to the closet, closing the door behind me. I picked out a loose long sleeve with some thin linen pants.

"Better?" I opened the door and walked out with a spin and a thin sarcastic smile.