𝗽𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽 | 𝘆. 𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗻 𝘅 𝗮. 𝗺𝗶𝗸𝗮𝘀𝗮

PART 8 - FEVER

"I wanna go home now," Mikasa murmured to herself when she's been at the park for an hour.

She roamed her eyes around the place and noticed that most of the people were now leaving the place. Still, some couple's were having fun but Mikasa doesn't care. She stood up, and walked towards her car and leave.

Mikasa's driving her car while looking from side to side again. She's not planning to eat some more but if she finds some delicious foods to eat, then maybe she could stop by and buy some.

While tapping her fingers on the steering wheel, Mikasa's now driving her car slowly when someone caught her attention. Mikasa knows that form, she perfectly knows it. And from her car, Mikasa can feel her heart beating so fast. She didn't know what to do. If she should rush into him or just ignore it and go home.

I'm tired. She said on her mind. She drove her car away that place with a heavy thinking. Mikasa didn't expect him to be here. Of all of the places? Why Tokyo? Her hand tightened its grip on the steering wheel as she felt very pissed of the moment.

Her heart's not beating for love, it's beating so damn hard because of nervousness. As Mikasa driver herself to her house, her head's full of thoughts. She's so far away from her house so it's been like hours before she got home.

Mikasa parked her car still with thoughts inside her mind. She closed the car door and walked towards the front door and opened it with her door keys. Mikasa lazily walked herself to her sofa and lay down there without changing her clothes. Mikasa just stared at the ceiling with unknown thoughts creeping on her mind.

"Ugh! I'm tired," she whispered to herself. She closed her eyes and dozed off to sleep due to exhaustion of her car ride earlier.

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"Mikasa! Are you okay?!" Mikasa could hear Armin's voice. Mikasa's still closing her eyes.

It's so hot. I'm sweating.

"You're sweating. Damn girl, what did you do? You have a fvcking high fever!" Armin said in a panickint voice.

Mikasa slightly opened her eyes and looked at Armin's worried face. Mikasa lifted her hands to touch Armin's shoulder.

"Don't worry. I'll be fine," she weakly said. She feels so weak at the moment. She's too tired to move nor to speak, everything seems tiring for her.

"I should call Eren, right?" Armin asked her.

Mikasa pulled her hand away and put it on her stomach. She shook her head. "This is just a fever. This can't kill me. By tomorrow, I'll be fine," she said.

"But Mikasa--" She cut him off.

"I'm fine, Armin. You can leave, I can handle myself. Thanks for the worry but I'm fine." She frustratedly said.

"O-Okay." Then he left the house.

Mikasa's not frustrated about how Armin keep on asking her. She's frustrated about herself. She needs someone right now but whenever time like this happens, she keeps on pushing people away from her. Her eyes became teary, she reached her phone where she left it yesterday and dialed his phone number.

"Please Armin… don't call him…" Mikasa said in a weaker tone of voice. A single tear drop from her eyes.

"Okay. I understand. Take care of yourself Mikasa." Then Mikasa hung up the call.

She stared at the ceiling again and she remembered the guy she saw last night. It's his fault. Mikasa keep on pushing people away from her because of that certain guy. All of her friends don't know about it. Just how Eren and her relationship works right now, that happened several years ago.

He had a great impact on her. She stopped depending on someone. She keep on pushing people away, Mikasa doesn't want to be attached from anyone like how she used to before. It's tiring for her. When you are that attached on that someone and you started depending on them, they'll leave you.

It's so tiring. I'm so tired. I can't move forward anymore. I just can't. And I just don't want to.

Then she met Eren, her current boyfriend as of the moment. She does truely like him, or love him. She doesn't want to know. She keeps on saying that she love him but honestly, there's some doubt inside of her. Doubt on herself or doubt on Eren. She followed what her heart desires, and that's Eren.

She wants to be taken care of. She wants to be a priority, even if she's not the one, at least she's some kind of priority to him, she's fine with that. She wants to be loved. She wants someone who'll be by herside, always.

I need him. I love him. I want him. I adore him. I canonize him. Just him. Not anybody, and just him.

Mikasa closed her eyes and sighed deeply.

"I should worry about myself more instead of my love life," she murmured to herself. She smiled weakly. She put her hands on her side and tried to sit up and made her hands support her weight. She sighed again when she successfully did it but it made her tired.

"Fvcking fever. Who invented this shit?! I'm gonna slice its neck for fvcking sake!" She hissed to herself when she felt dizzy. Mikasa held her head when she felt it throbbing in pain.

"Fvcking stupid!" She hissed again when the dizziness she's feeling just won't stop. Mikasa doesn't know who's she's been calling stupid. If it is the fever or herself. Despite of the pain, she chuckle herself.

"Why does fever fvcking exist?!" Mikasa felt so stupid as she keep on talking to herself. And she doesn't even know why she keep on cursing.

Mikasa lay down on the sofa again and she get her phone so she can check the time. She pressed the power button and she looked at the time immediately. She sighed and off it. It's still so early, and she's too lazy to make herself better. She think of the laziest way she could to make herself better… or worst.

Sleep. That's the craziest and laziest way she thought.