The Church girl & The Bi girl

A princess in platform boots

A K-Drama. Is what this felt like. 

A scene where they show five different shots and angles of the same scene so you could really drink it in. The scene where the bad boy kisses the good girl and she can't do nothing but stand there. Stand there as he kisses her, but just as she wants to melt he pulls away, leaving her breathless and confuse. And wanting more. 

This is what I felt like when Al kissed me, but instead of my prince in shining armor. I got a Princess in platform boots. 

Snapping back into reality, I realize I'm still kissing Alexandra. More like she's kissing me while I stand there like a blowup doll. Just as I heard the gasp and whispers, she pulled away. Looking into my eyes, searching for something. For what I don't know. 

I look over her shoulder to see my friend of  over six years, but to my surprise she's completely gone. Hearing the door to the cafeteria open i turn to see her walking out. Leaving me to defend this on my own. Who I didnt know came in though, while in my fantasy as Alexandra's was kissing me, was Dirk. Grinning at me with a malicious tint in his eyes. 

"We'll if I'd known you was gay, Sol, I would've kept you both and had an awesome night." The bastard says with a smirk, eyeing me down, trying to get me to submit. At this point I can't do nothing but submit. I was always weak when it came to Dirk. Which is something I'm now seeing he knows, and expects of me.  Looking down I fight back tears, I don't know why I feel so weak right now, why i feel like an ant compared to these giants but I hate it. 

Im usually never like this so why the one time i need to be I-

Pulling me out of my own thoughts, as well as pulling my arm, Alexandra leads me out of the cafeteria. I don't know what happened in the last twenty seconds, but I know that sooner or late its gonna be around the school like wildfire. Realizing my hand is actually intertwined with Alexandra's I pull it away from her, looking at her incredulously. 

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" In the empty hallways it echoed off the walls, sounding much louder than I intended. But Alexandra seemed unaffected, and if she was, she had a damn good poker face. Deadpan she looked at me stupid, and more irritated with my outburst rather than anything else. "What are you talking about?"

"Who do you think you are," I questioned wondering what gave her the right to make a move like that on me. "Princess we been through this before, im Al Moore." Hearing that only made me see red, too focused on the topic I don't even hear her use of the word Princess. "You asshat, what the fuck was that!" 

"I was defending you." She says a sharp point of her finger pressing against my chest, as if she had to clarify more who she was talking about. "Defending me, by what? Kissing me? Stupidest idea of all, what do you think I'm some kind of-" I stop myself, not sure what the next word out of my mouth was gonna be, but scared I was gonna say something I didn't believe. Despite everyone here not liking homosexuality, I find no problem it with it. People use our faith to try and put those down, but God has never said to do that. He has never taught me to hate someone because of the color of their skin, because of their wealth, or because of their sexuality. He's told me to love unconditionally, despite it all my father belives the same. And whatever was going to come out of my mouth, I as scared was gonna go against what I belive in. 

Pushing me back, Al steps closer to me. Suddenly feling meek again, I look away, before she pushes me back again. "Go ahead say it. Say it blondie, say what's really on your mind." She says still stepping closer, not realizing her game I continue to step back while looking away, not wanting to stare into the raging fury of her eyes. Grabbing my face as she pins me against the lockers with her body, she make me look up at her. Her face void of emotion but her eyes telling a different story, "Go ahead darling, explain how you don't want to be thought of as a she devil. How the label of lesbian is the same as being labeled a witch. How because you love who you love, people treat you different. And God forbid anyway treats little Ms. Daddys daughter different. Go on, say it." She grips my face harder at the end of her sentence, staring into my eyes waiting. Scoffing she steps back, shaking her head.  "You're just like everyone else in this town." She begins to walk away, the last sentence lingering in the air. And putting me at unease with myself. 

Pushing off the wall, I muster up the last bit of courage I have and walk up behind her, grabbing her shoulder as I turn her around. Her face is one of annoyance, as if she just wants to leave already. She can't just compare me to the liks of them and expect to leave like that. "I am nothing like them, you hear me? You know nothing about me, and have no right to go around making assumptions out of nothingness." Beginning to laugh she shakes her head. "Where was all this when miss prima donna and her team of bimbos were calling you a dike huh? When Dirk was belittling you infront of your student body huh? Where was it? I stuck up for you and here you go trying to fight something no one here cares about. Atleast not me anyhow. Yeah I kissed you. So what? It meant nothing to me. If you're really that bothered by it maybe it meant something to you." She finishes, causing me to stare at her in disbelief, knowing she's right but also wondering what her last stament really meant. As she walks away im left there dumbfounded and perplexed.  The bell ringing signaling the end of lunch and transition for freshmans. The halls filled quickly as people rush to classes or rush to see their friends. And the whole while, im still there staring off into the direction she went in wondering. 

Did it really mean something to me?

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1114 words << before end note

Wow, interesting you guys. I realize I'm still on the same day and its been four chapters. This is a little filler chapter that I wanted to put up since I'm bored and need something to do.

How about doing your homework *smacks*

....anywhore im bored and have nothing to do. So here you go. Im gonna be actually moving the book faster, I just got to get passed this first day so I can set everything set up and blah blah blah. One of these days I'm gonna go back and edit these chapters and one of these days I'm gonna stop being so cringe in my end notes. And hopefully one of these days I stop talking to myself because I know no one is reading this utter garbage.

But until I like where I'm at with my other books, (that aren't published yet) this is the one I'm working on sooooo. Enjoy.

Bye, have a wonderful time!