The Church girl & The Bi girl

You're eyes sparkle in the moonlight

I'm sitting in my room. 

"No cause there was this one time when Mari,was going down the slide right and it was raining that day!" Lesley say's.

And my best friend and her new found friend are here too. Having the most fun embarrassing me. 

Wait new found friend? I don't know when  or how Al got in here, and why she's all buddy buddy with MY best friend but, I'm tired of this. 

"And so when she went do the slide-" "Ok! Ok I think we know where this story is headed can we shut up about my embarrassing past please." I cut of Lesley from the exposation of me wetting my pants on the slide when I was in fourth grade. 

"Aww why so shy now little one?" Al says, pinching my cheeks. Causing me to flush and slap her hands away. "I just rather not regale tales of the past. Especially ones that make me look bad." I say side-eyeing Lesley, but her eyes aren't on me, they're on Al's. 

"And anyways, aren't you supposed to be working on your side of the project for AP Bio?" I say, regarding Al in a very mother like way. 

"I been finished that and sent my half to you via email." She says, not even looking up from her phone to me. "But have you finished your half, Missy? I would hate to get a zero and not be able to attend competitions because our team captain didn't do her work." Al says, with a slight jilt in her tone, looking up at me condescendingly. 

I stare at Al, for some time. No, I haven't finished my part, but I thought with Al be a delinquent and all she wouldn't have time to finish it, or more like didn't want to. Maybe I'm becoming the delinquent. 

"Keep looking at me like that, Princess, and I'll kiss you." She says looking back down at her phone. 

"Is that why you kissed her those first few times?" My friend Lesley chimes in. My head snaps towards her forgetting she was here for a moment. Honestly Lesley seems to watch me and Al whenever we're all together. Maybe I should talk her into getting a boyfriend or something, that way she isn't over here all lonely sometimes when Al and I have our.....moments. 

I've seen her stare at a few guys whenever they're by us at school, maybe i'll hook one of them up. 

"No, those were a necessity, something for me to get out of a situation, I never really wanted to kiss her. Those were just to help her." I hear Al reply. 

Honestly that hurt deeply, not knowing why though, I never expected much of a relationship from Al. I never expected much really, why would I. I not gay and therfor no feeling for Al would be present, so no expectation of a relationship. 

Still, as she says that I think back to night she took me to lake. 

The night she kissed without there being anyone around, the kiss not being for show. Not a necessity. No situation to get out of. 

A kiss she did, because she said under the moonlight my eyes spakle like diamonds. Cheesy yes, but in the moment melted me. Made me think, maybe Al feels something for me. Made me think that I, despite everything I know and belive in....like Al to. 

But coming back to present reality, nothing has happend since that night. And I don't whether to be thankful or sad. Thankful because I know I would just disappoint my dad if I gave in, but sad because I don't think I ever felt that spark with anyone besides Al. Not even with Dirk, someone I thought I loved whole heartedly. 

But as I look up, I see Lesley , joking and laughing with Al. I haven't seen Al smile like that at me in a while. Maybe I was just a plaything. But if I was why did she have to confuse me so much, to where I question my whole being. 

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Little filler chapter because I bored and it's Thanksgiving break. 

I have nothing to say so,...by lovelies.

699 words, after end note.