Poem book

Tree Swings

I picture myself swinging in a tree.

Left

Right

Head hung

Neck snapped

Oxygen leaving my body for the last time

That would be the first time I could see daylight

Everyday was pain

I'm not a fighter

I'm a coward

I'm pathetic

I'm lazy

I can't do anything right

I made her cry yesterday

I think I finally broke her

She gave up on trying to save me

I broke a good soul

I'm a horrible person

I don't deserve to be here anymore

Not if I was causing her that much pain

I love her with all my heart

But I can't just stay here when I do this to her

What kind of person am I?

I plan on giving up next week

When I do it

I'll be called names

Weak

Stupid

Idotic

Selfish

She'll find someone better

I know what pain she'll go through

I've been there

I'm still there

It's just not as bad

It might be worse for her

No

It will be worse for her

I just hope that she gets better

I honestly don't know what to do anymore

So if you see an angel in your room it's me

If you see a demon in your room

It's me

I don't know what form I'll take

Just know that either way I'll protect you

If I have to hurt myself to keep you safe

Then I'll drag that blade across my thighs as much as I have too

I really do love you baby girl

I just can't stay here any longer

I know I fucked up

I know I'm a coward

I know I'm all of these things

Just please be careful okay?

Don't do the things I did

Don't take your own life

People need you here

I know what your going to say

I need you here I can't live without you

You will

You don't need me

I'm just a waste of space