Loving 2 boys at once

Hidden Secret - Part 1

A few weeks have past.. It's the first day after autumn break.

Hailey's POV

I'm waiting with James at his locker as I always do, but since a few weeks Anna has joined us. It's nice having her around. She is actually sweet, a typical good girl. Just the girl for James. 
"Have you heard from Jake this weekend?" I turn around and face James.
He still getting his books out of his locker. "Yeah I did. Why?" 
I turn around and lean with my back against the lockers. " He's been acting weird lately, don't you think? It's like he is ignoring me or something."
" That's my fault, isn't it?" Anna looks guilty at the both of us.
I shake my head. " I'm sure it's something else, don't worry." I assure her. All though I think it has made him started to think, knowing him. Because he seems to act weird only around me.

From around the corner, we see Jake coming. I smile. He made it on time. But my smile fades the moment another guy comes from around the corner, walking next to Jake. 

They come closer to us. " Hi guys..You still remember Josh, right? My cousin."
Josh keeps on smiling the moment he sees me. I stand there a little awkard. 
Everyone greets him, except me. 
I give a sarcastic smile. " I remember I forgot to get my math book out of my locker. Catch you guys in class. Okay then." I lie. I turn around and speed walk to the nearest bathroom around the corner. I get in a stall, lock the door and slide down against the door. 

I haven't told Jake, I haven't told James and I definately haven't told my dad. I saw Josh on camp in Mexico this summer. And some things might have happened. 

I have known Josh since childhood, but he moved with his parents to London a few years ago. Josh is Jake's cousin and close friend, but I never could get along with Josh. We were always annoying each other, but when I had to spend time with him on camp things changed. We became friends and well, he became my summer love. And seeing we thought we would not see each other again, we said our goodbye's and agreed on not telling it to anyone else. But now he is back. I have the feeling I need to tell someone, because I am acting weird around the others and they might think something is going on.

But who do I tell? Not Jake, that's not an option. Maybe James? I shake my head. No he wouldn't understand. Wich leaves Anna? I don't know her that well yet, but we're getting along fine. And the good thing is she's more likely gonna look more objectively than subjectively at the whole thing, since she doesn't know Josh. And I think, and hope, she can keep a secret. Because Jake absolutely can't know about this. And I have to talk to Josh at some point.

Someone knocks on my stall door. " Heey, you're in there? The guys wanted me to check on you."
I stand up, put on a fake smile and open the stall door. " I'm fine.." 
She narrows her eyes. 
" Okay, I'm not fine. But I'll tell you later. Not here."
She nods. " Okay." 
I take her arm. She faces me. 
" But not a word to the guys. This is between us." 
She nods and gives me an assuring smile. I know I will be able to count on her. She seems loyal. 

Lunch break..
I'm guessing the guys are already in the cafetaria. I put my books in my locker and walk towards the cafetaria. From a hallway on my right, Josh comes along. He comes walking next to me.
" Not as happy to see me as last time." He smirks.
" What are you doing back in California actually?" 
" Long story, tell you later." 
Like always, his short answers and his teasing comments. But I'm still drawn to him. I study his every move everytime I see him. I still can't get how a few years ago we couldn't stand each other and now I can't stop thinking about him since the moment I saw him again in the hallway this morning. 

It stays quiet during the way to the cafetaria. 
He suddenly speaks, breaking the silence. " I haven't told him yet what happened between us. " 
That makes me a little relieved. I sigh. " Good. Because he can't find out. "
" Why would that be such a bad thing for him to know?" 
Should I tell him what I think, or not? 
I have been staying quiet too long in Josh' opinion, I guess. " Something going on with him that I don't know about?"
I sigh. " No! I just don't want him to find out. If that's okay with you.." My pace fastens a little and I walk in front of him.
" What about us then?" 
I turn around. " Us? I thought that ended the moment you stepped on the bus." 
He looks down a little hurt by what I said. " Yeah, probably for the best, right.."

He walks past me straight to the cafetaria. 
Did I actually saw pain in his eyes? Did he actually think we could pick up where we left off this summer? 
I still have a certain feeling for him that I can't describe, but we both said some hurtful things to each other the moment we seperated our ways. 

I don't know if I want to go back where we left off and then again, there's also Jake.