Loving 2 boys at once

Confused thoughts

Hailey's POV

After lunch break, Anna and I went outside. Both take place on a bench. I look around to see if no one is around us.
" Okaay.. You are acting freaky. Tell me."
I am gonna make this story short, I let out all the details. 
" Well.. To make a long story short.. I have known Josh since childhood, we could never get along. He moved away a few years ago. I saw him again during summer camp in Mexico last summer. Since we were forced to spend time, we became friends...." 
Anna looks confused at me. " That's not that bad.." 
"... And we fell in love. Josh is my first love. But we ended things at the end of summer and said we would never talk to someone about it, because we wouldn't gonna see each other soon anyway." 
Anna smiles. 
" Are you amused by my misery or what?" 
She shakes her head. " No, don't get me wrong. But what so bad? So you and Josh figured out you have feelings for each other. Why can't the guys know?" 
I sigh and shake my head. " You'll get it at some point." 

Anna heads for the toilets, while I make my way to James and Jake who are standing by Jake's locker. Jake is ruffling in his locker. He hasn't noticed me. Let's surprise them! They hate that, but I don't care.
" ... telling your best friend you might fall in love with her." I stand still. 
Did I just hear that right?!
" What?!" Those words escaped my lips without meaning it.
Jake noticed me standing there. 
" Look Hailey, you know.. It's.." 
I am rather annoyed of Jake not saying something, but then James speaks up.
" .... Looks like you know why he was acting so weird. Best you guys settle the idea."
I look at him like it's obvious. " You can say that. I'm going." 
I turn around and rush outside and slide down against the wall around the corner.

It's like I have been sitting here for a while. I heard the school bell, but I didn't bother getting up. I need to be alone. Settle my thoughts.
" There you are, Connors." I recognize that voice.
Josh takes a place next to me. Tears of confusion are sliding on my cheeks. 
He notices them and whipes them away. " What's going on with you?" 
I put up my shoulders. " Just confused about some stuff.." I sigh. " Wish I had my mom with me now, she would give me some advice on how to handle it." 
He nods. " I know what you mean." 
I look at him confused. " What are you talking about?" 
I see water coming in his eyes. " Remember I said I was gonna tell you why I'm back in town?" 
I nod without saying a word. 
" Well..." He puts his knees up and leans his arms on them. "... my mom and dad... died.. Car accident. That's why I'm living with aunt and uncle now.  They are my guardians. "
He looks at me with tears in his eyes. I could cry from only seeing the look on his face. 
" I'm sorry.. I-I didn't know.." Is all I manage to get out. 
He gives me a weak smile and looks down.

Without hesitating, I wrap my arm around his shoulder and pull him towards me for a hug. He lets me and buries his head in my shoulder. 
He has such a big mouth, but such a small heart. He acts tough, but deep down he is a pretty sensitive guy. 
" Thanks.. " His voice cracks.
He gets his head up. His eyes meet mine and I can't help to stare in them.
As a few seconds pass, he snaps us out. " Okaay.. I think I better get going." He gets up.
I cough to ignore the awkardness and get up too. " Yeah me too.." 
He look in front of him and leaves. 
I sigh and shake my head. What the heck am I doing? What is he doing to me? What are they both doing to me?
Why do they both need to feel something for me?

I walk inside and notice James a few metres ahead of me by his locker. I look at my right where I see Josh walking. I still look startled.
I go over to James. 
" Seen a ghost?" James asks me with his arms crossed.
I shake my head and snap out. " Huh? What?" 
" What is it with you guys today? You say Jake acts weid, but you are not any better. And where were you first period after Lunch? You are barely passing math, so I don't think you can afford it to miss much of that class." James is bossy over me again. I know he only means well, but I really don't need that right now.
I look at him with a poker face not saying anything. 
" Can everybody just leave me the heck alone? Really!" I noticed some people looking odd at me. 
I pass James and just go away. 
Anna looks confused at me, while passing. I just ignore and go. 

 Why is everything so damn difficult? 
James pushes my nose on the facts and figuring out not only one, but 2 guys like me.

Can things get anymore confusing?