Playing with fire // karlnap

Chapter Four

TW  -  ED, PANIC ATTACK, SEWERSLIDLE THOUGHTS,

SKIP THIS CHAPTER IF YOU GET TRIGGERED BY THESE THINGS BECAUSE ITS ALL JUST ANGST SORRY :[

Third person

Karl woke up in Sapnaps arms basking in his warmth. After 5 more minutes of them cuddling, Clay barged in screaming that it was time to eat breakfast.

Sapnap got up even though he still wanted to lay in bed with Karl.

Karl POV

As I get up to eat I get this uneasy feeling in my stomach. Maybe if I ignore it I will feel better. I walk into the kitchen to be greeted with the smell of pancakes, eggs, toast, and bacon. It looks delicious but this voice in the back of my head is telling me I don't deserve it.

Maybe I don't?

I look to Clay and say "I'm not really hungry I think I'm going to go shower, but thanks."

As I'm walking away Sap runs up to me and asks if i'm ok but I just tell him I'm fine and walk to the bathroom.

When I grab my clothes I go into me and Sapnaps shared bathroom and lock the door. When I take off all my clothes I step into the shower I started a little bit ago so it will warm up.

You don't deserve this.

You should just disappear.

All you deserve is pain.

These thoughts won't go away. Why won't they go away.

I start breathing heavily and my legs start to feel like jello. I fall and turn the heat knob in the shower all the way up.

I can't breathe or feel my hands and my throat is closing up. As I am hyperventilating I feel burning tears spilling down my face- or is that the extremely hot water spilling onto my head.

As I start to lose my vision I hear knocking on the bathroom door and soon enough I hear faint bangs but I feel like i'm slowly slipping into unconsciousness so I allow myself to pass out.

Sapnap POV

George, Clay, and I were sitting at the table enjoying our breakfast when we hear a loud thud from me and Karl's bathroom. Hearing that worried me so I jumped out of my chair and I start to run to the bathroom. Once I reach the door I knock a few times.

No response.

I grew even more worried so I push my ear to the door and hear light sobs so I start pounding on the door.

"KARL? KARL ARE YOU OKAY?!??! I screamed multiple times. That hot George and Clays attention so they ran over and after no response and after we couldn't hear anymore sobs we grew more worried.

Cold tears were rushing down my face as Clay burst the door open and covered his eyes.

I ran into the bathroom to see an unconscious Karl lying in the tub.

As I grabbed a towel I turned off the roasting water and threw a towel over him.

"GO GET A COLD RAG!!" I yelled through my sobs as I picked up Karl and took him to his room.

As George set the cold rag on Karl's forehead I grabbed a clean pair of boxers and shorts from his drawer and I told Clay to go grab one of my t-shirts.

I dressed him and sat at his desk for hours waiting for him to wake up. He has a pulse so I know he isn't dead. Every 30 minutes George comes in to replace the cold rag.

After he wakes up and is ok I am 100% going to take some me time and light some buildings on fire. Alone.

Only one question ran through my mind in the 8 hours that I waited for him to wake up.

Did he purposely turn the heat up?

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A/N Geez this was hard to write. I don't like writing this as much as arson and such but I felt in the mood to write this. Sorry I haven't been updating as much I have been working on school stuff and I didn't realize how fast time passed. I will most likely have another chapter this weekend but I am sorry for the shorter chapter. some of the hot water stuff I got from another story. it was dnf or karlnap i forgot sorry! If you did skip the story and you are just reading this you didn't miss anything EXTREMELY important for future chapters but this chapter is mentioned in the next chapter. There will be arson next chapter too so i'm looking forward to that. I hope you are enjoying this story and lmk if there is any spelling or grammar mistakes and MAKE SURE TO EAT AND HYDRATE PLEASE EVEN IF ITS A LITTLE BIT EACH IM SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU EVEN THOUGH IDK YOU. HAVE A NICE DAY OR NIGHT :]

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