The Secrets You Keep

The person you are

*edited the rest of the chapters are unedited unless stated otherwise*

Period 3: band 

I had to stay away from Peter at all costs.

No matter how much I wanted to talk to him, no matter how much I wanted him to just hold me when I was upset. I couldn't. I couldn't bare to see the disappointment on his face when he would look at me and just see me. Nothing special. I would never be the person he stares at thinking about what skirt I was wearing or what was new with my hair. He wouldn't do that, no matter how hard I would try to become the Liz he wanted as a soulmate. I knew he was looking at the wrists of every girl in the school, the question was would he look at mine? We are children in a world of beautiful people and literal superheros. I'm not that. I'm not what he wants. He's the guy with abs because of a spider. A fricken spider. I'm not that. I will never be that. I could never be that. 

I just want this day to be over. I don't want to wait and sit around doing my thing for all of a sudden Peter to realize the random light in the corner of history class. I can't let him do that. I can't let him figure it out. I couldn't. I wouldn't. 

Period 4: Science

I just wanted to leave, I couldn't take the anticipation anymore. 

"Why don't you just tell him?"

"I can't."

"Why not?"

"I just can't"

"Y/N the longer you wait this out the harder it is going to be."

"I know Michelle, I just need to figure things out first."

"Fine." 

Who knew silence could be so deafening. 

*****

I was finally free and the first thing I did was sleep. 

I was tired and everything was just feeling overwhelming I couldn't take it. Right now I can just wish for a better future with maybe enough room for a certain spider to crash in. 

By the time I woke up it was dark. And I still didn't know what to do with this whole situation. I knew I would grow to love him but the question was would he love me?

I ended up on another buildings rooftop. Not my own as I didn't have a good view there, here I do. I had a hoodie on with the hood up so no one could really see what I looked like. 

"You ok?"

"Ah! Don't scare me like that Spider-boy!"

"One, sorry didn't mean to. Second, it's Spider-Man."

"Sure Pete."

"P-p-p-pete? I don't know a Pete I'm not Pete what is a Pete?"

"Peter Parker. I'm not stupid Spider-Boy. You don't hide it very well." 

"I hide it very well thank you!"

"Sure whatever helps you sleep at night."

"Well back to what I came here for, are you ok? Not many people sit on rooftops at midnight." He sat down beside me. 

"Just thinking."

"About what?"

You. "How much things have changed." in and out "I never thought I would find you."

"What?"

"I had hope I could wait it out until I was older."

"I'm not catching on."

"I'm not Liz, I'm not Michelle, I'm not even close to you..."

"I am so confused."

I lifted up my wrist pulling up the pilled fabric "... yet I'm still connected to you."

"Oh my gosh you're my-!"

"Soulmate, yeah, bye Spider-boy."

"What? No don't go!"