Growing Feelings 2 (Bertholdt x Reader) College AU

Unspoken Words

- What happened??

My voice was shaky and I felt my eyes getting watery. Armin wasn't moving.

A few moments after I got there, a few others joined the scene and took measures for a strecther to reach him. 

While I walked up the stairs, I directed those words to the person standing on the top of it, that for the whole ordeal had stayed silent.

I noticed a few people looking at me when I talked, which caused him to turn arround and leave. I followed him through a corridor wich led into a poor lit area. His back was turned to me, even though all there was in front of him was a wall.

- I...

- Bertholdt... was it you? Did you cause this..? Did you... pushed him down the stairs??

I noticed he hesitated for a while. By the time he spoke again, his voice was colder than what I had ever heard before.

- Why didn't you answer my messages?

- How does that matter now? Just answer me!

- Do you want me to say it was me?

- It was...?

His words were knife cutting and I felt my headache growing stronger.

- Why was Armin at your place yesterday.

- So you did hear it... I... I know I broke my promise, but that doesn't mean you can go arround and hurt people! Armin had nothing to do with this! If you wanted to hurt someone it should have been me!

My words came out before I realized it even though I knew they made no sense.

- You think I would ever hurt you??

He finally turned arround with his voice getting more fierce. With his face gazing at me in the dim light a thought came to mind. I realized how freakishly tall he actually was. Big and strong. And to be fair he was also...

A little bit scary.

I took a step back and answered with a faint - I... don't know anymore.

Bertholdt turned arround again and placed his hand on the wall.

- I don't understand... if that's how it is, why are you even with me?

- I don't know.

I raised my hand and touhced my forehead. It was hard to think of anything and I was still shocked on what had happened to Armin.

Armin...

Would he be alright?

- Look I... don't want to talk anymore right now. I should go...

- Then we should just end it. You want to see how Armin is, right? 

- Well, yeah...

- Let's just end it then.

- Alright... See you later then.

- No... not later. I won't be seeing you later. Or ever. You're better off without me.

- What do you mean...?

- You know what it means.

Bertholdt walked pass me but I didn't move.

- You mean you want to break up?

He stopped walking and I felt a knot on my throat. I didn't want it to end but the Bertholdt I knew would have never done this.

I guess... I just didn't know him that well.

- Armin... did nothing wrong. He didn't deserve this. You are right... I can't be with someone whose jealousy hurts others. I... would rather be alone.