Steven Universe: Steven's Split Spinel (Steven X Spinel)

Chapter 5

NOTES: Warning, this chapter will contain strong language and talks of suicide.

Chapter 5

It was the next day.

Spinel was sitting at her table, eating some breakfast that the institution provided, it was presented on a four-part split metal tray...though there wasn't much: Two sausages that looked under cooked, one strip of thin pieced bacon and some bake beans, probably only two table spoons full... and a shot of orange juice that smelt like it had gone off, plus it was warm. Spinel didn't mind the breakfast...she didn't see the point in complaining about something she'd get for free, ever since she's been here. It was only the orange juice she wouldn't touch

After quickly munching on the breakfast, she would slide the empty tray through a metal hatch, at the bottom of the door, for someone to collect later on their rounds.

Spinel could only guess the time, since she had no clock in her room or any other way to tell the time...and only relying when the breakfasts get delivered, which was normally between 7am till 8am...and sometimes Steven could come to visit. That was the only thing she looked forward to.

Spinel sat down on her chair and just simply stared at the door with great anticipation...something about today felt good, something positive for once...but of course her mind comes into play.

Why? Why do you do this to yourself...?

Spinel kept quiet, trying not to listen to her thoughts, that clearly weren't hers...or at least the side of her she didn't want to hear.

Why do you trust him?

Again, Spinel shook her head, trying to rid of these negative thoughts, but choose not to respond. She produced a smile and imagined Steven coming through the door any minute...because the reality of it was, that he promised...and so far, he's been true to his word.

This is what he wants! He...he wants to gain your trust.

SPINEL: (Oddly positive but talks to herself) Nope.

He wants to gain your trust...and then PUSH YOU AWAY, WHEN HE GETS THE CHANCE!

SPINEL: (Weak smile) No...he doesn't...

How can you be so stupid? Have you forgotten what has happened before? It all ends up the same way...

Spinel keeps her mouth closed, tightening her lips and shaking her head.

Our mother...had our trust. She was supposed to protect us...

Spinel starts to shake down her body.

...to be with us...

Spinel bows her head, trying her very best to ignore the voices in her head.

...she was supposed to love us...she was supposed to stay with us...BUT SHE DIDN'T, DID SHE? SHE LEFT US! SHE ABANDONED US!

Spinel then puts her head in her hands.

SPINEL: STOP IT!

AND THAT'S WHAT HE'S GOING TO DO! YOU'RE GOING TO GAIN HIS TRUST AND THEN ONE DAY, HE'LL PUSH YOU AWAY!

SPINEL: NO!

Her eyes start to produce some tears.

He'll push you away...like a common tramp...

SPINEL: JUST...LEAVE ME ALONE!

I won't...

SPINEL: WHY?