𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚎𝚛... [𝙱𝚊𝚔𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚔𝚞]

Chapter 18

I'm coming.

(Deku POV)

Hurt.

Broken.

Confused.

Empty.

Irritated.

And a slight bit happy.

I don't know how to explain it. It's like...when you do something you don't want to do but you know it's going to help someone else. Kinda like sacrificing your own emotions for someone else. But that someone else isn't just a random person, because if it was then you would care less. It's more like someone you would be with until the end. No matter what. But sometimes while sacrificing yourself, you have some regrets. The thoughts creep out from the deepest parts of your brain, the part where you dump all of the thoughts you hope to forget. Once it comes out, it drowns you. Drowns you and hopes to cut your breath. But to avoid drowning, you need a lifesaver ring, something that you brought with you. A reminder of why your doing this. And that's what keeps you going.

I closed my journal and threw my pen on the ground, not caring if I lose it. I hid my journal under my bed and prayed no one would ever think to look under my bed for whatever reason.

After crying for hours and hours, it feels good to let it out. Maybe not to someone, but either way works.

At the moment I felt a tsunami of emotions. So many to the point I felt nothing at all. I looked at my blank wall and just sat there, accepting defeat and letting my thoughts drown me to the core.

I didn't even notice when loud footsteps entered the hallway. I didn't even notice the knocking on my door or the yelling that followed it. Heck, I didn't even notice loud explosions coming out and a loud BANG that continued.

I didn't notice anything until I felt someone pick me up from my collar and making me face them. That's when I had snapped out of it and was welcomed with fire. No no, correction, eyes.

"K-Kacchan?" I stammered. Oh fuck. What the hell happened in the 5 minutes I was sitting down? But this is Kacchan- wait why isn't he at the party? How did he know I was here? Did someone tell him? What if the class told him I did this and now he's mad! Damn it I knew I should've death threatened them or something.

"Oi nerd." Kacchan seethed. You couldn't really tell, actually, you couldn't tell at all, but Kacchan was mad mad. One wrong move and he would murder you in one swift move.

"W-what're you d-doing here? A-aren't you s-supposed to be a-at the p-party?" I trembled. Dumb question izuku. Now he's gonna be even more onto you.

"You weren't busy. Hell, you even knew about this." Tightening the grip on me, i couldn't help but let a whimper.

I'm screwed. So so screwed. God, Zeus, whoever is on miracle duty today please, let me out of this. And let me just say, they probably hate me too. Because just as I was about to apologize, I was thrown to the ground.

"I was wondering why you didn't come. I was confused because you were always following me. Everywhere I went, you were a few feet behind me. Even if I beat the fuck out of you, you were still following me.

So then why didn't you show up?! I asked the class and after a while they told me everything.

Deku, I know I fucked up. I screwed up like shit and I know I was an ass, but IM TRYING TO CHANGE! DON'T YOU SEE THAT? I DON'T HATE YOU! I-I-" Kacchan voice cracked, tears streaming down his face.

And I was in utter shock.

(Bakugou POV)

"Deku, I know I fucked up. I screwed up like shit and I know I was an ass, but IM TRYING TO CHANGE! DON'T YOU SEE THAT? I DON'T HATE YOU! I-I-"