Random Things

long title from last chapter PT2

I'm so tired and i have tests tomorrow- i speedran this- and omfg my work was deleted so i have to write everything again i hate today so much.

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- NOZOMU'S SOLO -

CLOUD NINE:
Cloud Nine, the state of perfect happiness. Many people rarely feel this nowadays, but I feel lucky to be one of the ones to have been on Cloud Nine. (It was when I got my Kpop albums 🤩) And, though only a few know this, but in my M4 backgrounds, all of them have trauma, especially Subaru. And Nozomu being Subaru's best friend, of course he had to help. Not only him, but to the rest of M4, he's like their parental figure they never had. Parents, or anyone who cares about someone else, always have this mindset of: "Their happiness is my only priority." And so, Nozomu came with the idea of Cloud Nine as his concept. Where the state of euphoria is constant, somewhere where he longs his friends to be in. So he can get rid of their pain that hurts them, and him, so much.

"if the hurt comes, so will the happiness."

SO I FORGOT TO ADD THIS IN THE ALBUM COVER AND SHT- BUT IT DON'T MATTER ALRIGHT- aNyWaYs, little one shot again- not really, just the story, does have a little dialogue though- DUDE I LOVE WRITING ANGST BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH TOO-

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"If the hurt comes, so will the happiness. Be patient."

"But why did the hurt come to me in the first place? I was just a kid. Why me?"

He heard Subaru cry into his pillow. The cries were nothing new, something he hears regulaly from him actually. He softly brushed his friends hair with his hand, making sure not to disturb him much.

Subaru had a tough childhood growing up. It wasn't much of a surprise on why they had to go through such harships at such a young age, having done nothing wrong. But there wasn't anything they could do about it now, can they now?

Even with the acknowledgment of that, Nozomu kept trying. He tried replacing the past events with new ones, happier ones that he could remember forever and forget the others. Filling up the rest of his life with happiness, along with Asahi's and Kanata's too, was the only goal he wanted to really complete.

"As much as I would love it to be for everyone, life isn't meant to be easy. Even if we're just innocent young kids."

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"If the hurt comes, so will the happiness. Be patient."

"Don't tell me the outcome of my situations, you don't know what will happen."

And as much as Kanata was right, he was equally wrong. Of course, no one can ever predict the future correctly, but it has happened many times and will happen again. Even if Kanata refuses to admit it.

Though being a closed up person, he finds joy in many things. Whether it be watching people live their own loves through a window or putting Subaru's and Asahi's life in danger. It wasn't hard to tell that he was happy.

But it also wasn't hard to tell he was miserable, which was probably almost everyday. He wasn't given much affection as a kid, and whenever someone shows it to him, he either reacts in an uncomfortable way (mostly towards Subaru) or in a nervous/confused matter. It's hard to get him to open up, but there's been progress. He gave him a gentle rub in the back.