Random Things

idk a sentimental chapter about minecraft

I deleted all my 128 worlds. All those miserable attempts on building a nice house, the multiple dogs I had, my big farm, my scary adventures I had with my sister when we went mining in a cave. We would always fight about the smallest things. She was so nice back then now that I think about it. She build portraits of me, would always protect me when I was scared of fighting mobs. She would ask to build a house for us two because she was genuinely scared of everything. I would say no, but I gave in a few times.

Oh! And we'd play minecraft mini games so many times by ourselves, it was the best. It was weird playing with other people though, jsjs- I remember how I got my 'nickname' Audrey from her. I used to watch a roblox/minecraft gamer named Audrey so much. (RadioJHGames) I still refer to myself as Audrey sometimes, many of my online friends know me by that.

I only kept 4 worlds out of those I deleted. One was the time me and my sister were home alone in new years Eve, we'd have once again tried building a nice house and pretend to be cool minecraft youtubers. When our parents came back and told us it was new years, we were so shocked. I Remember screaming that it was a new year to my sister.

The second was the time my brother, my sister and I were all able to play together. It was also my first time playing in survival. My brother had built this amazing house, rooms for all of us. It was such a wonderful feeling, having all three of us laughing when all we did was fight all the time. (Damn this is making me tear up-)

The third was the only minecraft server where I didn't remember fighting with my sister. She had build me a huge house and she built her tree house next to it. I did so much with that house, and so did my sister. We spawned chicken's everywhere for no reason, but i named them all. I had an aquarium and everything! The first time I actually liked how i decorated the place.

The last is my first minecraft world. It's so messed up at the moment, my sister exploded everything by "accident" in the past. Thankfully, my little rainbow bridge house? Was still in tact.

Little by little, I left minecraft. I never logged on that much anymore. I deleted them all because I was growing, and also because my brother was getting a new PS4- but I knew I just didn't enjoy playing Minecraft anymore. My sister however, would always pester me about playing with her again after another one of our daily fights. I said no, of course. I don't know if it was all my new likings that kept me from it, or because it was just the game itself. Either way, i left. I didn't wanna say bye to all those memories, but I couldn't keep them forever. I thought it would just be better if I just said bye then and there, make the pain hurt less or something.

Two years and I just forget their whole existance. Then my brother left for college. My sister didn't talk about minecraft anymore, just roblox and gacha or some sht. Never asked me to do anything with her anymore. I don't remember if I cared, I was busy getting into anime and Kpop i guess. It was also the time I joined wattpad.

So, in the last two months, my brother came back from college. He was staying for the winter break. He brought his PS4 with the same minecraft disc we've been using. My sister asked if I wanted to play for the first time in like forever, thankfully I said yes. (She got into the Dream SMP, i wasn't surprised she asked) 

We logged into our accounts and it was so beautiful. Got into my first server and explored once again. It was so good to have that feeling again, the feeling of... Belonging, i guess. We played for awhile and made a new world! (Failed btw, we fought again- wkfbakfbw) It was so nice and relaxing.

In the free time, I would go and play by myself in my old, first server. This time in survival mode. I built myself a nice house, and aimed to finish the game. (Sort of) I got back the feeling of finding diamonds the first time, the excitement of being chased by mobs old and new. I never finished the game and I don't intend to, no matter what my sister tells me how important it is to beat it. It doesn't feel right, it'll feel like I'll actually say goodbye.

I visited my old minecraft youtubers. DanTDM, Little Kelly/Carly, PopularMMOS, Stampy Cat, Ldshadowlady, and they've grown so much. I love them all dearly. So when my sister asked me to watch the Dream SMP, i said no. I wasn't ready to let go of my childhood yet and start a new era. I was sad, that if I did watch them, I'd just watch them grow up like I did with the others and would have to say goodbye. But I did start watching them so- 🤡👍

Then my brother left for college again last week. I feel emptiness again. But I ordered a laptop for Christmas, so I'll be playing Minecraft there so I could Hopefully make new memories to remember back to. And also because my sister Forced me too, nagging me about the Dream SMP jsjdjdbwjf-

It was nice to talk about this. :))

But seriously if anyone else would like to play minecraft with me hmu in 2 weeks 😌😌😌 akbfkabfkaf-

(We can place our minecraft beds together if you'd like-)