i know you care for me ☼ tubbo

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"good morning! wake up, wake up, have a good breakfast!" i woke up to my harry styles alarm.

"oh god." i groaned. i rolled over. i finally forced myself to turn off my alarm and sit up.

i flapped my hand around my bedside table to pick up my phone. i was instantly blinded by the light of my phone. "fuck!" i mumbled.

i opened spotify and turned on my playlist. my room filled with the sound of my favorite songs.

often i am upset that i cannot fall in love but i guess
this avoids the stress of falling out of it

i quietly sang along and finally got up. best friend by orange county came up next. ha, my theme song! i thought.

@cloudybxtch

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i have to go to school 😩✋

anyways, have your song lyric of the day - i hope you meant it as i took cause i'm about to make a fool out of myself at my expense

@iamelite: miss girl we just want a face reveal stop playing 😰
^@cloudybxtch: haha 😼 this is the most your getting for a while

@tubboatstan: are you really sad this morning? :(
^@cloudybxtch: no just liked this picture but thanks for asking 💕

@buglawfig: ew what the fuck your so ugly 🤮 just go die or smn
^@cloudybxtch: aw, thanks for admitting to being sad ✨💃🏻

i smiled at most of the comments. my fans were sweet and nice and i loved my fan base. they always checked up on me and made sure i was okay.

i dug through my closet and found an outfit.

*if you don't like it then you can change it :)*

i looked in the mirror. perfect, i thought as i smiled to myself. as i grabbed my phone, i heard the iconic intro to hayloft by mother mother. i laughed to myself and paused the music.

i grabbed my phone and walked out of my room and went downstairs. i was greeted by an empty kitchen and downstairs, as i usually was. i sighed and looked for the note that my parents usually left on the counter. i finally found it and read it.

dear y/n and george

good morning. we hope you got a good night of sleep last night. there was a last minute business meeting in the states and so we're going to be there for a month.

i stopped reading the note for a second and scoffed in disbelief. "a month?" i whispered softly to myself. that was the longest they had ever been gone. just me and George, alone, for a whole month. oh golly, I thought to myself. i continued reading the note.

i know, that's a long time. but me and your father have to maintain this business and that requires long trips and distances. we left a large sun of money on the coffee table for groceries and necessities. we can send you more money if you need it. don't hesitate to reach out to me and your father.

love, mom and dad.

i sighed and rested my head on my hands. i angrily crinkled the note and threw it in the trash. i looked at the sink and saw that there were some dishes that needed to be done.

might as well distract yourself, y/n. we know that george is gonna refuse to do them until you get home from school. i thought. whatever. nothing mattered. I started on the dishes and was able to distract myself for a good 10 minutes.

when i finished, i turned on my sad playlist and started a cup of coffee in the coffee machine. i rummaged through the cabinets and fridge to find something to have for breakfast. i decided on an orange and a chocolate muffin.

my coffee finished at the exact moment i heard my phone ring. i glanced over, knowing exactly who it was. i sighed, not wanting to answer it. i didn't want to pretend to be happy. i just wanted to sit in my feelings.

"hello?" i said into my phone, putting it on speaker. "hiiiiiii y/n!" the boy said excitedly. "hi aidan." I said calmly. "i saw your post, are you sure your okay?" aidan blurted.

i sighed in frustration, pushing my tongue against the side of my mouth. "yes, i'm sure, aidan. you don't have to worry about me. i've said this so many times."

"but i do worry, y/n. you know this. you barely come out of your room, and when you do, it's to do something you are forced to." i squinted my eyes shut. i was so tired of hearing this kid talk. every single stupid person give this lecture to me. (a/n yes i am looking at you, authors brother 😒)

"you know what, i have to go get ready for school. i'll talk to you later, aidan." I responded. "but.." i cut him off by saying bye and hanging up quickly. that boy drained my energy. i quickly forgot about the conversation and ate my breakfast while watching my favorite show.

aidan was blowing up my phone so i blocked him. i was obviously going to unblock him once he stopped texting me non-stop.

after finishing my breakfast, i dragged myself back up to my room, my feet feeling heavy and holding me down.

i packed my bag for school. i made a mental note to text george about our parents being gone for so long.

i grabbed my bag and phoen and headed downstairs. i wrote a few things on the post-it note for george, telling him that he as going to school and would be home as usual.

i felt like i was missing something but then i realized what it was. my earbuds. can't walk to school without those. i made my way out of the house and locked the door, straightening my back and heading to school.

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1000 words.

jesus christ that's a lot. it's kinda long, but it's 2am and I got a random burst of motivation to write this :) go eat something, finish your homework, get some sleep, and drink some water :)

songs in this chapter:
- this is home by cavetown
- best friend by rex orange county
- caught on fire by holmes

virtual hugs 🤗

- allison 🌟