𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙩 | BrightWin au [ON HOLD]

xix

Win's POV:

"Go ahead and tell me.." I spoke after a while, the silence in the room suddenly abrupted by my voice.

I didn't know what Bright was thinking or what his face looked like as I asked him to fill me in, to tell me what he was hiding. The conversation I had with my mother a few days ago was ringing in my ears, almost deafening out what Bright was about to say.

"I was not with you when the accident happened."

I know that, tell me why did you lie.

"I was alone..." I answered to him, a plea for the truth noticeable in my voice. It was a topic that ran through my head the most when I learnt about it from my mother that day. "My mother told me."

"Was I alone when my accident happened?" I asked my mother who was silent on the other line, probably wondering why I'm even asking about it in the first place. I was never someone to talk about my accident to anyone and that included my mother as well. The silence from her line made me nervous.

"You were rushed to the hospital by the police who were on the sight when it happened and they were the one to call the ambulance for you, I reached there about an hour later and they told me that it was a case of hit and run." She answered afterwhile, it was no shocker, I've heard that before too.

"I was the only one who got injured in the accident?"

"From what I remember and the police told me, you were the only one on sight." That was weird, a total contrary to what Bright had told me before.

"Where did my accident happen?"

"In downtown? I believe thats what the police said-" My mother clicked her tongue as if she remembered something, "I remember them telling me about how when they first you saw crossing the road, you seemed to be in an argument with someone on the phone! And that's when you didn't realise the car that hit you and drove off without looking!"

It was different, far different than what I heard from Bright. Had he lied to me or was it my mother who was lying?

She wouldn't lie to her son about his life's turning point right?

"Were they able to identify whose car it was mom?"

"They never were able to do so, sadly. I made constant rounds to the police station with your aunt for the whole month until you woke up from coma. But in the end, we closed the case because you didn't seem to want to remember anything."

"I didn't want to remember? What do you mean?"

"You kept telling us and the doctor that you want everything in your head to be erased right after you woke up for about a whole week." This was something new, I have never heard this before. She never told me anything about my denial to remember my memories but at the same time, I never bothered to ask her as well. "The doctor said it was the affect of the medical drugs you were in and your conscience speaking for you. But then the next week when you woke up, you didn't remember anything. Not even the previous week."

I took a deep breathe, the information that was feeding into my brain making me question alot of things that had happened in my life. "Did anyone come to visit me in the hospital while I was in coma?" I chewed on my lips as I waited for her to answer.

"I don't remember anyone other than Khaotung coming over to visit you."

"Why did you not even come to visit me in the hospital?"

For the next week after that I kept wondering, what did I do wrong, why was I so adamant on forgetting everything and why did I actually forget everything in the end as well?

Was it like a curse? A curse that only the man sitting infront could put on me.

It almost seemed like he had ran away from the scene if not for the sounds of him breathing and shuffling in his seat. Bright should definitely say something before I lose my mind.

"I didn't want to meet you, it's true."

"Why?" I stressed, dropping my spoon and leaning back on my chair, I know he could see me getting anxious to know more. Was he purposely speaking so slow and selectively? To make me agitated?

"Because I thought I didn't deserve to." His words made my heart ache. "And you didn't deserve to be in that accident."

"It's not about who deserves what-"

He cut me off before I could say anything, "It is. You didn't deserve to lose your eyes and suffer like that."

His words angered me, who was he to say what I deserved and what I didn't? I know my haywire of emotions don't make sense but so does his logic.

It was an accident.

A very unfortunate one at that.

"And it's all my fault." He kept saying but it still felt like he was just spiralling along the same lines and words that he fed me before.

How am I supposed to trust you when you speak like that? Speak in that manipulative tone of yours?

"Its all my fault that-"

"Stop." I heaved a heavy sigh, stretching my legs and I continued, "Stop speaking in that tone."

"What?" Bright sounded perplexed at my outburst.

"Stop with your manipulative words and stop spiralling around different topics rather than speaking of the actual topic." My voice sounded strained and I indeed was tired of him. Tired of the way he kept saying things in the same way he did the last time. "Tell me what really happened, please."

Bright became silent, probably taken aback by my words. I bit my lips, peeling the chapped skin off until it started to bleed lightly.

"What do you want to hear first?" He broke the silence after awhile.

"Why did you lie about us being together when my accident happened?" I questioned, pushing my plate to the side lightly and wandering my hands to look for the paper napkins I put in the counter. "I know you weren't there with me, I was alone when the accident happened and I was the only victim of it."

I felt the softness of the napkins brushing my fingers and pulled them towards me, wiping my hands with it.

It was silent for another minute and honestly, it felt like an hour to me instead. An hour of silence from the person I wanted answers from. 

"But I was there in the scene when it happened."

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another short little update! slowly getting to the real plot and where everything started. the next chapter will be in bright's pov so it might take some time to jot down perfectly

i read a book in ao3 today and i was so inspired by it that i just knew i wanted to sit down and update this story!

i hope you guys are okay and healthy as well! love you guys as always <3