The Heart of Mars & The Heart of Space (A Mick Mars/Tommy Thayer Love Story)

Chapter 8-What do you mean we have to share a room? (Tommy T.POV)

A/N: Included the song, because one it's been stuck in my head & two I feel it fits perfectly for what's going on between both Mick & Tommy....Please enjoy the chapter!

The tour's started and so far, it's of course gone great! We've had our first few shows and all and they've been killer. We've all been getting along great so far, but Mick and me? Well, we talk and all, but it seems like a never-ending push & pull. He talks and then clams up, and he's getting increasingly moody and seems distant? Maybe it's his back, maybe its me? I just don't know what to do, I try and keep my head down and offer support without words. I just want to solve this mystery and I keep getting this increasingly suffocating feeling that before long things will come to ahead. How can you be friends with someone who you love, but they don't know it? All of this is so very confusing!! I'm frustrated, mainly with my self but with Mick too. I don't know how to help him, don't know what to say and god help me! I have been thinking, has he noticed the way I become a blushing mess whenever I'm around him? We keep dancing around each other, there's tension...And what is his deal? Does he hate me? I thought he at least liked me now, I thought...Does he feel ANYTHING for me? Or would he?

I'm brought out of my thoughts by a sudden, "Ok guys, so the rooming arraignments are going to change a bit...Now, the kids are here visiting and all." Management. Wait what's going on again? I finally manage to tune back in and fail to notice who's at my side...

"So, Nikki & Paul, Vince and Gene, Singer and Lee and lastly Mars & Thayer." Wait, we must share a room now?! I then notice the person at my side is Mick...Oh god! He and I exchange a glance, before looking away from each other. So, this will be interesting, rooming with the man I am very much in love with, unsure of his feelings, where I stand or even our tentative friendship. Again, I think I'm obvious and everyone else around me tells me so and have even told me that Mick acts differently around me than he's ever acted around anyone else. I am so drained right now, and I realize I haven't been honest in words but still...I go to walk away, when that dark sounding voice I know oh so well and hear every night in dreams speaks, "Hey um Tom? So, we're gonna be roommates huh?" Oh Mick!

"Yeah Mars, looks like it. Hope that's ok or whatever...I know you don't usually share rooms", I sighed.

A pained look crosses his face and is that remorse? "Tommy its ok, really" and then I notice he gulps and so do I. How the hell are we gonna do this? How am I gonna survive? No more time to wonder, as our meeting with management ends and we all head off to prepare for our respective shows, but before I can join my band, large spider like fingers close around my wrist...

"Tom, Tom I'm sorry about being so moody here lately and again being an asshole." Mick seems to absentmindedly be rubbing very gently the inside of my wrist with his thumb, unaware he's even doing that. Why is he doing that? I feel my heart pound and hands get clammy before I can form words my heart melting, "Um, it's ok really...sorry um got to go Mick...You take care ok?" and still he has yet to let go of my wrist or has yet to cease rubbing the inside of my wrist.

"I will Tom, I will try...", he chokes out eyes downcast and I walk away and so does he, but again those icy-blue eyes are watching me, eyes full of so much emotion that it takes my breath away, but the chief emotion seems to be pain...Oh, Mick why so much pain? Why me? Why won't you let me in? His apology still rings in my ears, he genuinely did sound regretful. I wish he would open and for that matter why don't I open-up and tell him My feelings? I should I know I should, but I don't know how or where I stand. So, we're gonna be roommates, I am both terrified and thrilled at the prospect.... Time to start the show!

A/N: Oh, I am so eager to hear what you guys think! I do really hope you enjoyed the chapter! And the next one, things between Mick and Tommy will really come to ahead, but I promise it will all work out! Stay tuned!