Be mine

Part 22

I smile silently and look up. Jordan's room is a mess, a pile of clothes sit in the corner of the room next to the wardrobe,  along with stacks of dirty plates and cups messily  spread around.
"look i am sorry for this" Jordan says moving his eyes to mine, i reply  "it's not your fault" i sigh. He nods his head and looks away "it is my fault" he continues looking away "jordan" i say quietly, he ignores me and stands up facing me "it's all my fucking fault" he places his hand on his head and hits the door "jordan" i say again, louder whilst standing up. He sits on the floor with his hands in his head once again i place myself down next to him and say nothing, i figured  it's best to not say anything.

Some time goes by with not saying a word, Jordan is calmer now i think, he seems to be anyway. I move around a bit and i realise i need to be heading home
soon "i need to go" i say in almost a whisper to Jordan whilst sitting up further, he looks up at me
and shakes his head "i want you to stay" he replies with a blank look on his face once again i smile and stand up "my dad will be worried" i say a bit louder now Jordan smiles "izzy please stay just tell him
you are at missy's house or something" he says getting up "i have no clothes" i say, at this point i am
trying to see his responses to the questions even though i do want to stay "use mine" Jordan says almost straight away, i look around the room and see no available top everything has either been shoved into a pile of dirty laundry or been dumped into a draw . I look back at Jordan as he rips his top
off him, and holds it in one hand the top is a dark shade of blue with a image of something i can't tell because it has been rubbed off. He hands it to me as i take it out of his hand he says "now will you stay" i smile "yeah i suppose" i say holding the top in my hand.

I look over at Jordan once more and look down at the top "shut your eyes" i say to him, he covers his eyes with his hands slowly as i giggle "hurry up, i can always leave you know" i say as he covers his eyes, i don't fully trust him to keep his hands there but regardless I take off what i was previously wearing, i place my clothes on the floor and look at Jordan, the top is still in my hand i am only wearing my pants and bra, jordan removes one finger from the hand covering his eyes and smirks "Jordan!" i shout playfully and hit him with the top he places his ands back on his eyes and i quickly put the top on, it feels warm and it smells like him "open your eyes" i say
as he removes his hands from his eyes i twirl around
"what do you think" i say as he laughs a little "it looks better on you than it does on me! keep it" he says walking over to me and wrapping his arms
around me, my face leans against his bare shoulder and i breath in he whispers in my ear "i am sorry you found out this way" i stay where i am and he doesn't let go "let's forget about it for tonight" i whisper back i can feel him smiling.

I text my dad 'i am over at missy's house i will be staying there tonight' I turn my phone off and place it on the bed, Jordan is sitting on the right hand side of the bed and looking out the window lost in thought.  The sky is a dark grey and the street lights are dull some cars pass by slowly as the trees sway in the cold breeze i prefer it night, it's quite and isolating sometimes i feel lonely at night but tonight i don't. "let's go out" i say turning to look at Jordan, he looks at me like he is  confused and opens his mouth like he is going to say something, i realise what it sounded like, i laugh "no not like that, let's go out there" i say pointing to the window he looks relived but disappointed at the same time "okay" he says and gets up he grabs a hoodie from the handle of his bedroom door and puts it on "let's go then" he reminds me impatiently i smile and get up, he grabs my hand and pulls me gently out of the house.

We walk around in the cold air, his hair is sticking out the front of the hood as it blows about in the wind, we pass through an alleyway as we enter a street with houses either side. The street lights are flickering and darker here i look in the distance and i see a tall man accompanied by what it looks like a woman, they look dressed up from what i can see i cant  make out who they are but the man seems oddly familiar i squint my eyes "who are they" i say in a whisper to Jordan who seems to be looking at them too "i guess we will find out" he says as we are getting closer and closer to the couple the man has straight brown hair he is wearing trousers and a shirt  and the woman has curly blonde hair she seems to be wearing a fur fluffy jacket with a dress "izzy?" i hear the man say as they step into the street lights "dad?" i say looking at him with a shocked expression on my face "what are you doing?" i say looking at the woman i can see out of the corner of my eye  Jordan looking at me, i haven't seen the woman around before but she smiles at me awkwardly "i am Laura" she says looking up to my dad smiling.