A girl with a big heart and so much emotional damage moves to a small town with her foster parent. She hopes that this can be a new start, but then she meets a boy who will either help her fight the demons of her past or become one of her demons him...
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After Caleb tells me he is sorry I have to rush home because Molly has a rule that I have to be there by 3:45pm. School is let out a 3:00 so she says it gives me enough time to get home. Yes she is a little strict but not as bad as some of the other homes I have been in.
When I get to the house I go right up to my room and lay on my bed. I hate acting happy all the time I just don't want anyone to see the vouranable part of me. It scares the hell out of me i don't want people to think I'm weak. I lay on my back staring at the ceiling thinking of the dream I had this morning. I had only two hours of sleep last night because I couldn't stop dreaming everytime I close my eyes all I can hear is the screams of my father,mother and brother as the flames overtook there bodies.
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Over the next two weeks I became good friends with Caleb and Ryder. They both are equally obsessed with football and are pretty decent friends if I do say so myself. Caleb does have to apologize occasionally for being mean but other than that they are ok.They both also have been talking about keeping there grades up because if they get to low they can't play. I talked Molly into letting me help them study after school all this week to make sure they can play in the upcoming game.
I woke up a bit late so I had to get dressed really fast and get out of the house faster than i usually do. I walk into my history class just in time at 7:58 and class starts at 8:00. I take a seat beside Caleb and Ryder we have a quiz in history today I give the two boys a smile. The teacher starts handing out the papers"If you talk during the quiz then you will be sent to the hallway and get a automatic F" he says and he makes his way through every isle. After he passes out all the quizzes he walks to the front of the room and tells us to began.
I realize that I left my bag at home because I was in a hurry. I wait a few minutes trying to make sure Mr.hamburg isn't looking. I lean over and tap Caleb on the shoulder he looks up towards me "do you have a pen I can borrow?"I wisper "I don't think so let me check"he says back.
"Miss Martin and Mr Andrews hall now" hamburg says God I really don't like this man. "I was only asking for a pen" I say in a defensive voice "excuses hall now both of you" he says I stand up and walk to the door hearing Calebs thumps behind me. We step out into the empty hall and Caleb puts his hand on his head and looks distressed. "It will be OK we have another one next week we can make up for this one"i say in a calming voice giving him a assuring smile.
"No you don't understand stella some people don't have understanding parents to go home to, some people don't have a perfect life like you and how the fuck do you forget to bring a pen to class" as the words escape his mouth I feel like someone just drove a dagger right through my heart." You don't understand if I go home to my father and he finds out about this he will be furious some of us actually have things to worry about"
I feel the back of my eyes sting with tears and my throat starts to hurt.
Don't cry..don't cry ...don't cry...don't cry
I keep saying that in the back of my head. "What do you mean? do you think I dont have things to worry about?" I question my eyes pooling with tears. "Do you think that I'm not freaking the fuck out about that quiz too? At least you know what you are going home to."
His eyebrows furrow and he looks into my teary eyes.
"At least you know that when you go home all your father is going to be is disappointed that you are below a c average, when I go home tonight I don't know what will happen I don't know what my foster mom is going to do"
I feel a tear slipping down my cheek
"I have never had a bad grade while I have been living with her so I don't know how she is going to act but I do know how my many foster parents before acted they would punish me chain me up in the basement for a few days,make me sleep outside, take away bathroom privileges,beat me and there are plenty of other thing that have happened because I got a bad grade do you want me to keep going?" I ask raising my eyebrows my voice getting louder the angrier I get.
He shakes his head no then looks down at his feet.
"Oh and do you want to know how I forget a GOD DAMN PEN?" I shout through gritted teeth."because I've been getting two hours of sleep a night because I have nightmares and instead of going home right after school and sleeping I have been helping you two asshloes study so I over slept and when I got up I was in a hurry to get here and forgot my bag because last time I over slept and got to school late I was starved for two weeks because I didn't take my education"seriously" I put the last word in air quotes.
"So next time you think I dont have any thing to worry about,or you think you know how things are in my life think again because when I go home I don't think about if I have a high enough GPA to play football I worry if I have a high enough GPA to stay alive"
My cheeks are wet from my tears and I turn to walk to the girls bathroom and I feel his hand land on my shoulder. "Wait I'm sor-" he starts I push is hand off "oh what are you going to do apologize and use an excuse that you were tired and didn't get enough sleep last night thats why your being an ass well guess what I haven't been getting enough sleep all week and I still treated you and Ryder with respect so next time you decide to be an asshole think of a better excuse before you come apologizing to me again" I shout and dart towards the ladies room wiping my eyes.
