Brownie Broods. Brownie Rants. Brownie Speaks.

Not a rant. Just something that gives me HOPE ✨

*Last night's small talk with two of my nieces*

Me: I haven't bought anything nice for y'all in a long time. In over a year actually because of corona.

9-year old niece: You're the worst.

Me: But baby it's because of losing my job and not having enough money to spend on shopping. You know that, right?

9-year old niece: But you have a job now.

Me: I do but it's not the same like before. It's a downgrade so I'm still not able to do things like earlier.

9-year old niece: Ah whatever

Me: I need to find a proper job or start a business. Then I will be able to buy you guys everything you want.

6-year old niece: Ah! I have an idea. How about you sell the cookies that my mom makes?

Me: Yeah, I can do that for sure. But that's again your mom's business. I need something of my own.

9-year old niece: You can sell your fried rice. You make the best one. (Me realizing she is talking about some food I made for her around 5 years back coz I haven't cooked anything recently 😂)

Me: You think so?

9-year old niece: Obviously. Or you can start a YouTube channel. That's what I'm planning to do.

Me: Oh okay. That can be an option.

*Meanwhile the 6-year old niece sounding like a business magnate and suggesting more business ideas for me*

Me after listening to everything: Those are all great ideas. I should consider doing something like that.

Me: By the way, you know, in a book that I read, the heroine is a shopaholic and she falls into huge debt and to pay it off she finally sells all her clothes and shoes. And she does make enough money with that.

6-year old niece: Why does she sell her clothes?

9-year old niece: Who even buys used clothes?

Me: Since she is a shopaholic she has all these branded items. That's why it works for her when she offers those at cheap rates.

*Both thinking for sometime*

6-year old niece: Okay then you sell my clothes and underpants *breaks into laughter*

Me: Hahah really?

6-year old niece: Yeah. Or how about you sell your laptops?

Me: Both the laptops I have don't belong to me. It's my brother's. So can't sell that.

9-year old niece: Then sell your iPhone.

6-year old niece: Yeah, that's a good idea. Sell your phone.

Me: My phone is the only thing I have in life. If I sell it I won't have anything at all.

9-year old niece: *Giving me a cold-eyed stare* YOU HAVE YOUR SOUL!

6-year old niece: YOU HAVE YOU.

6-year old niece again: *giving me a hug* AND YOU HAVE US ♥️

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These two are the sweetest things ever 😍🥰 I know the entire conversation happened because they wanted me to buy toys for them 😂 but I loved how positive and proactive they sounded the whole time 🤩

At their age, I didn't even know that entrepreneurship was an option. I always thought I must study hard and land a well-paid job. Not just me. That was my whole generation's attitude. That's what our parents and teachers told us to dream about. And maybe that's why myself and several others are kind of stuck now, not knowing what exactly to do with our future. All our lives, we prepared ourselves to earn monthly salaries that we are even afraid to take risks and try something new now.

Since recently I have been thinking a lot about my future (I guess that's what happens once you turn 25 🥴). Not a day goes by without me asking myself, "Will I ever make it in life?" And though I try my best to promise myself "Yes, I will", sometimes my negative thoughts overpower and remind me why I might not. That's when I get stressed, feel down and even break into tears 🤭 (I dunno whether this happens to you but this is quite common for me these days)

Somehow, after talking to the kiddos, one thing is evident. Whether I make it big in life or not, InshaAllah they will 🤗 I hope they continue to be this optimistic, no matter what life throws at them. I hope they will work towards their goals and dreams without much fears and maybe show me one day how I should have lived too 😁🙌🏾

Or maybe before any of that happens, I will actually take their advice and try something new 😉✨ Maybe I might win or maybe I might lose. But at least I would have the satisfaction of trying 😀

Anyway, no matter what happens, in a few years, I'm gonna come back and read this post from 03.04.2021 and compare my life from now to then to see what many changes have taken place.

Hopefully, it will be all positive! 🌟