When I Look at You (TaeSana)

Chapter Three

Taehyung's POV 

A week passed already. Sana is still Sana, always being grumpy towards me but I am already used to it. Well, how would I not when I am always with her every day and every minute this week and in those times, not a day passed that she didn't roll her eyes and walk out at me.

Sana and I are always at the house or most of the time at the barn. While Sa Ji and Grandma are always at the farm, if not, they are downtown buying essentials. 

I stayed up late last night because I read a book and the curiosity of the story's flow is keeping me awake, so I stayed up and read until I fell asleep. That is why I also woke up late and here I am knocking on Sana's door room but she is still not opening it up. I didn't think much of it because that's just really her. Her patience can only last up until fifteen to twenty minutes. 

Yeah, I observed that.

She'll get irritated by now to my knocking and open this door but it took me half an hour of knocking, and she still hasn't opened it yet. 

Is she still asleep? 

I knocked one last time before deciding to just let her be. Maybe she's still sleeping, besides It's five in the morning. 

I fed the chickens and I was about to go inside when I saw the lights are open at the barn.

I quickly went there thinking we'd been robbed but as soon as I got there I heard saw Sana brushing the horses and humming some kind of a song.

I don't know what song it is, all I know is that it sounds wonderful.

"That's beautiful—Ah!"

"Sorry" I apologized when I saw her shocked cute face but I can't help to also laugh while apologizing. Her face was remarkable. I should've brought my phone with me, so that I could take a picture of it.

"It's fine" she replied that made me stiffened. Now, I'm the one who's shocked.

"Did I hear that right?" I said wanting her to repeat what she just said. I don't know if I'm just hearing things, is this what happens when you stay up late and don't have enough sleep?

I was expecting that she would repeat it but, yeah, what am I thinking. It's Sana. She won't say such things. That's just not how I know her.

She'd rather roll her eyes at me.

I sighed. I am enjoying time with her being grumpy but it makes me think she doesn't want me even though it's one of her personality.

"Why are you up early?" I asked, also getting a brush to the tool area to use for animals. I walked towards a horse that's beside the horse she's brushing

We only have three horses here. One is black, the other is white and another is a mix of dark and light brown. I am brushing the black one while hers is white.

"Did you sleep?" I questioned because I saw that there are dark circles under her eyes as I stare at her lovely face.

She puts down the brush and walked out without answering neither one of my questions. I am already used to her walking out like that but this time. It felt like something is wrong.

Something is bothering her.

and it bothers me that I don't know what is.

I fixed the things in the barn before I decided to go back to the house. As I entered no one is there, I don't know if she's locking herself in her room or not but I cooked breakfast first before finding her.

"Sana?" I saw her door's room is open, she never leaves her door open so I know she isn't here.

"Sana?" I yelled multiple times. As minutes pass by and I don't know where to find her, my heart started beating fastly and bullets of sweat are forming on my forehead.

Where could she be?

There's nowhere to go here other than this house, the barn, and the cliff from afar.

Wait, the cliff?

Why would that be a choice? I haven't even brought her there. How would she know?

Without further ado, I locked the door of the house and walk my way to the cliff but minutes later I find myself walking fastly to running my way there.

What is she doing there?

How did she know that place?

Why am I running?

Why is my heart beating so fast?

Why do I feel like I am so worried?

Those questions popped in my head as I run my way to the cliff.

There is one tree standing near at the edge of the cliff and I saw Sana there leaning on the thick and big trunk of the tree with her eyes closed looking relaxed and carefree.

I can't help be annoyed but I am also relieved that she is just fine.

I breathed out, trying to catch my breath. She's here leaning and relaxing while I am nervous and worried about her. She could've informed me or even just write it on a sticky note and give it to me if she doesn't like talking to me.

She's out here in peace while I..... 

I closed my eyes and breathed in, trying to calm myself and choosing to understand her. When I am already calm, I walked my way towards Sana. I sat next to her, making her immediately open those beautiful pairs of eyes she has. She then looked at me with no expression on her face. She's not even shocked that I am here. 

Tch. 

I opened my mouth wanting to say everything that I was feeling earlier because of her. Nervous and Worried, she made me feel as if I have anxiety. However, as much as I want to say what I was feeling, there were no words coming out. I then closed my mouth and just let it be. 

You know, that there are times where you need to speak, but there are times that you need to just listen, even to the silence. Because silence speaks more than it seems. 

So, I just let her be. Clearly, I do not know anything about her since we've only been living together for a week. But I do know that, she loves silence and that she is a very grumpy person despite her appearance saying the opposite. 

and another is that She loves egg rolls, most of her clothes are white, she never forgets to lock her door's room when she's inside, her patience is as thin as a thread, and that, well obviously, she likes to be alone. 

Too bad, she won't be anymore because I can't stand letting her be.