When I Look at You (TaeSana)

Chapter Twelve

Taehyung's POV 

"Sana I...I like you." 

It took a minute before Sana turns around to face me with an unreadable expression. I don't know what she's thinking, and I feel like I am about to pee my pants or run out of here because of embarrassment if another minute passes by that she is not saying anything. 

"What?" she asked as if she didn't hear what I just said.

"Y-You heard it," I said looking like an awkward teenage boy in front of his long-time secret crush. 

"So...you're jealous?" she asked in an unsure tone but I feel like she's teasing me. 

"I didn't say that," I said, sounded defensive. 

"Yes, you didn't, but you don't have to." she smiled, so wide that it reaches her eyes. "You could've just said, "Hey Sana, please don't be close with Sung Joo because I am getting jealous," Sana said, trying to imitate the way I speak. 

I feel my ears heating up, I can imagine them getting so red like an apple.

No, I can't do this. It's so embarrassing. 

I turned my back to Sana to run away, but I felt her arms wrapped around me before I could. I can feel her head leaning on my back. 

"I like you too," Sana whisperingly confessed that made me stiff and unable to move. It was as if my feet were glued to the ground. I was frozen yet my heart is melting. 

I don't know if it's her heartbeat or mine but I can hear a heart beating so fast as if it just run five laps from a wide field. 

Now my ears are just getting a lot more hotter. 

I was about to face her but she wouldn't let go of hugging me from the back. 

"Don't move. Let's just stay like this for a moment," she said softly, and I couldn't refuse. As much as I want to see and hold her beautiful face at this moment, I can't, because I like this too. 

This is the first time Sana hugged me, and I can't believe that she also felt the same way I do. 

It just felt so...surreal. 

Five minutes. 

We stayed like that for five minutes, under the night sky with lots of shining little stars and one bright full moon, after Sana said she's already feeling sleepy. She must be tired. It's a long day we had. 

We both separated ways when we entered our own rooms. I laid on my bed with a wide smile on my face, looking at the ceiling I repeatedly recalled what just happened earlier. 

What Sana said is like a song on my mind. I can't get rid of it because it keeps replaying all over and over. 

I don't think I can sleep tonight even though I am exhausted because we worked almost the whole day, and I have no complaints about that. 

The next day, Grandma is happy because the harvest was a great success, she even wanted to host a small gathering party for all the farmers but she decided not to. Her reason was that we have to plant right away for the Autumn season since Autumn is nearing. 

Speaking of Autumn, I love the fall season. I don't know why but I just love the color of the trees, how the green leaves turn to yellow leaves, and how sunsets look a lot more beautiful in Autumn.  

One day, I want to visit Nami Island with Grandma, Sa Ji, and of course Sana, when the season is Autumn and we'll get showered and covered with yellow ginkgo leaves. 

"Hmm Someone's happy." Sa Ji teased, she is preparing plates on the table while I'm putting the food I cooked on a serving plate. 

"Did you tell her?" Sa Ji kept talking. 

"Or did she tell you?" okay fine, we can talk about this. Ignoring and avoiding Sa Ji is never the answer. That will never happen because Noona here will never stop until she gets what she wants. 

"Take a guess," I said with a smile as I remember everything that happened last night. I feel so recharged. 

"You both confessed." She said so straight with a confident smile. She's so sure about her answer. Did Sana tell her? 

No, she wouldn't, it's just not Sana. 

"How did you know?" I whispered. 

I don't even know why I am whispering but just in case that Grandma's around. I wouldn't want to let her know too. 

She'd tease me like what Sa Ji is doing. 

Sa Ji laughed, I had to ask her again so that she'd stop laughing and give me an answer. 

"How wouldn't I? You both had a smile on your face as you wake up. You both acted like the happiest person on earth, and it doesn't look like a coincidence. So, therefore, I conclude that something happened, and I thank you." she answered with a smile. She even waved like she's some beauty queen on a question and answer portion part. I gave Sa Ji Noona a disapproving look. 

"You know, you might want to try to be normal sometimes," I said and quickly ran before Sa Ji beat me up to death. 

I stopped running when I got outside, I just went back inside the house after I checked on the chickens and was about to knock on Grandma's room to tell her we're about to eat when I saw that the door is slightly open and I can slightly see Sana inside. 

"Thank you, Sana." Grandma thanked. She's sitting on her rocking chair. 

"What for Grandma?" Sana asked back, her hand gently brushing Grandma's hair 

I know that it is bad to eavesdrop on other's conversations but I can't help but be curious about what Grandma and Sana might talk about. 

"For being here, with us, and especially for being with my Grandson's side." 

I smiled at that. Grandma is always looking out for me even though it may not be seen and times that I am upset at it because there is a time when she's strict.

I just let her and not act spoiled because it doesn't happen often.

Grandma lets me do what I want as long as it won't harm me much, be it emotional or physical, but why does this one sound more than just thanking Sana? 

"I hope that you could stay with us longer but I know that you have to leave eventually." Grandma, with a sad voice. I immediately got what Grandma is talking about. 

A sudden pang of pain pierced through my chest.

I walked out there as soon as I heard them coming.

I knew.

I knew that the time would come, but I did not know that it will be this soon. This is what I fear and this is why I can't have feelings for Sana. 

I shouldn't have let my emotion got over me yesterday because sooner or later...

Sana will leave.