SERENDIPITY

Fields Of Gold

The fields of gold and the clearblue skye lightened up the undulating landscape which extended as far as my eyesight could reach. I obscured the sun's rays with my hand as I walked toward the elm tree in the middle of the field. Yellow rapseed flowers embraced me from all directions and wound around my legs.
     Shadow from the tree hid me from the bright sunlight as I sat down. I leaned my back against the elm and looked at the long branches with green leaves. Some of them were bent down and others were finding their way up to catch the light.
     Suddenly a bird woke up, started fluttering and made its way down to the ground. It looked my way and came closer. It had speckeled brown feathers and an orange beak.
      I giggled when I realised it was my little companion from last week. That's what I hoped for!

"Hi there, beauty."

     In my pocket I had put down some seeds that I found back home in the garage. I took them out and laid them on the grass beside me. The little bird jumped towards them and started eating.

"Hope you will like 'em."

     I closed my eyes for a while. I could feel a gentle breeze and the scents from a magnoliabush. The magnolia grew a whole sea of rapseed flowers away, but still I could feel the lovely scent. A few seconds later birds started to sing their peaceful song, and I opened my eyes again. They were floating far above my head, almost touching the clouds with their thin, long wings. At least it looked so. I wondered if they were ever afraid of anything. It didn't seem like it. They were not afraid of heigh, strong winds or deep seas.

"That's pretty cool.." I mumbled.

    It reminded me of my mother. The reason I wanted to go here.

"Right" I pointed out, while taking out a paper and a pen from my small bag.

    I started writing. My hand moved fast over the blank paper. I had so much on my mind. So much to tell her. I wanted her to know that I missed her, that I missed us. I started to think about the cold mornings when she took my hand and led me out on the fields with bare feets, so that we could watch the sunrise and hear the blackbirds song. I remember her warm and soft skin, her kind voice when she woke me up in the mornings, her safe embrace and loving heart.

    Dear mom,
     I'm sitting at the golden field a hundred meters from our home. When I went here, I felt the dry ground under my feets and the heat from the sun. The alm have grown even bigger. The wind is warm. It's august. Soon the days will get shorter and darker, the summer will turn into autumn with red leaves at the walkways, roofs and gardens in the whole town. I can't wait untill I'm able to walk alone in the city with my blue umbrella in the rain. Maybe, where you are, it's even more beautiful in the autumn.
      It's kinda weird. When you dissapeared, I couldn't bring myself to go here. Here is the place where we made so many memories. But now, I'd rather go here than to you. Because, I'm afraid that the sight of you in another world would break me down from the inside and out. And how could I ever leave this?
    I miss you more than ever before. I can't believe that you left me. I know that you had your reasons, perhaps you wanted to try your own wings. Still, it hurts. All birds doesn't have to fly so far. I've been thinking about you every day since you left. That's my number one priority. I want you to know that I haven't forgot anything about you. You may be far away, but that haven't changed my memories with you.
      I really want to see you again, but this is my home. I guess it will always be. By some reason you send me your adress. Was it beacuse you wanted me to go find you? Well, I'm happy here. I have friends, I have dad, the nature, birds and fields. I don't want to leave. Don't you miss this? Why won't you come home?
      I use to say to everyone that I'm fine, and I am, but at the same time you are missing. And I can't do anything about it. You're the missing piece, and it breaks my heart. You made a choise a long time ago, and it's up to you to decide what you're gonna do next. If you decide to come back here, to our home, I will welcome you with open arms, even if I hate that you left. I'm still hoping for you to come back to me. What else is there to hope for when I don't have you?
     If you instead decide to stay where you are, I will never stop missing you. I believe that you'll not stay away from me forever. Yes, I know this isn't only about me. But how could you love me just to leave me? I'm ready to forgive you if you let me.

It was like everything broke inside me when I was done writing. Tears fell from my eyes. I've been holding it inside for so many years. Finally I let it all out. I wrote the adresss with a shaky hand and stood up quickly, even if I felt week like a fragile straw. The beautiful bird looked up at me when I resolutely walked away. I smiled a little and waved goodbye to feel better. But actually, it felt like a I was dragging a big stone behind me. I kept on walking, despite the pain. I was going to post this as soon as I came into the city, no matter what.

     That's when I heared a voice calling my name.

      I turned around and searched around in the environment with a shaky gaze, trying to find the one who possibly could have called me.

" Shaylynn... Shay!"

I squinted my eyes to see who it was. And I couldn't believe it.

" It can't be..." I told myself.

I rubbed my eyes and looked again. Maybe my brain wasn't working very well right now. But I saw everything clearly.

"No way." I walked a few meters.

"MOM!!" I yelled as high as my lungs managed and started running towards her. It really was her!

I don't know if I've ever been running so fast in my entire life. She opened her arms, I couldn't tell if she was laughing or crying. We collided there, in the middle of the golden field. She hugged me tight and I couldn't help but cry. The scent, her hair and face and body was just the same. She was here. She was home. With me.
      In that moment I realised that my missing piece had been found. I didn't want to let go of her, but after a minute she pulled away and looked at me with the biggest smile ever. But then it turned into a sad expression.

"Oh my love. I'm sorry, I'm so so terribly sorry for everything."

I wondered if she would ever understand how happy I felt. I was suddenly healed. This was a moment that no one could ever take away from me.

"Honestly, I'm fine now." I whispered.

      This golden field brought us together once again. We could feel the wind, hear the birds singing and watch the most beautiful sunset I've seen for a long time. And for that, I'll always be grateful.

~ And that's what happened a lovely
        day at the fields of gold. ~

// Thank you for reading my book. I hope you found this enjoyable!
Warm greetings, Alicia.