left eye high || lh *rewriting in the future*

04. Calendar

"Same time tomorrow?" He was giving me a whole new headache now after listening to the countless snide remarks he made throughout the entire day.

I almost wished his smug winks served the purpose of flirting with me instead of his real intention: to just piss me off. But it's just the sort of guy Luke was.

"Unless you want to be late for school, Aussie." I said, both of us heading out to the parking lot. We stepped through the doors and my entire body tensed up. I was so much more irritable in the cold. And it was raining. Got to love New England.

I wonder why Luke chose to come here, of all places. The weather was always bipolar, and was overall just awful for the entire 4 to 5ish months of winter. In addition to that, nothing exciting ever happens here. I didn't mind that factor too much, but I still couldn't see the draw of it to someone not from around here.

And the worst part about this damn place was that no one ever seemed to leave. I couldn't imagine being stuck here forever, but guess I didn't have much business anywhere else either.

"Wouldn't want to miss a second of that face now would I." He replied sarcastically, snapping me out of my thoughts and putting me into an even worse mood.

I held myself back from shooting him a nasty glare. I hated him even more for talking about my face. Again.

I should be used to that being what defines me, what people think of when they hear my name, but I didn't want him to think of me as 'the girl with the scar,' like everyone else did. Not that he would think about me. He just likes to get under my skin. Asshole.

"Bye." I said shortly as I rushed off, hoping his car was in the opposite direction of mine.

***

Thankfully I was able to make it up to my room without seeing my family.

My room wasn't anything special, but it was quiet and I liked being there. Not huge, but big enough to fit a bed, dresser, and desk without feeling cramped. The almost-white green of my walls against the darker gray of my bedsheets was somehow calming, and any other accessory that filled my room was black, white, or gray to maintain the organized look.

I threw my bag beside my bed and couldn't help but to glance at the calendar on my wall.

I remember growing up and seeing the calendar at this time of year. I would count down the days on my excited little hands until Christmas. What a contrast to the pit in my stomach I felt now. I already knew my letter would be here soon. I was too scared to think about it.

I tore my eyes away and fell onto my bed. I was totally and completely drained, even more so than most Mondays. I had no motivation to do homework, or anything really, but after a few seconds of rest I forced myself back up and went to get my sneakers from the corner of my room. I had to get my run out of the way before it got even colder.

And I knew I'd end up doing my homework, I needed the grades.

I groaned as I tied my shoes - they were still damp from yesterday and I could already feel the wetness seeping through my socks.

I texted Calum before heading out:

Parents are going out for dinner tonight, come over and watch a movie?

I poured myself a glass of water and hopped up to sit on the counter. I'd only taken a few sips by the time he responded:

Can't tonight. I'm really sorry babe, see you tomorrow x

I furrowed my brow when I read his text.

He always came over Mondays. We'd start watching a shitty horror movie, or occasionally a sappy romance, and he'd eat buttery popcorn while I refused most foods that were even remotely unhealthy - with my face I have to do anything I can to keep my body trim. Anyway, we'd do that until we got bored and he'd suddenly become more interested in me than the movie.

I wasn't too concerned that he couldn't come though, something probably came up. There was no valid reason to worry anyway; we'd never had a huge argument or anything even close to that in our relationship. Plus I could sleep longer now.

I finished my water and set out for the damn lamp post.

+ a/n ooh luke and letters and parents and calum what's goin on hehe