Gem and I

Chapter 11 - Help.

TW: panic attack

Gemini's/Kai's pov

(do anyone else internally read with a deeper voice if it's a male pov? just wondering)

I lay in my bed at my apartment wondering why I have the certain urge to call Marzanna.

I don't want to bother her too much.

But she won't get off my mind.

Why?

I go with my gut calling her phone,

*ring ring*

"Hello?"

I notice her voice tremble and crack. Is she crying?

"Hey, you alright?"

"Um, yeah. What is it?" She lied.

"Come on girl, tell me what's wrong. Are you in trouble?"

"No. But I feel really bad. I can barely breathe and it's so hot but cold too. I can't stop shaking and- and my chest hurts."

I quickly google her symptoms while slipping on some shoes and grapping my keys.

"Am I dying?" She asks me.

"No. Your not dying. Your just having a panic attack."

"Then why does it hurt?" She whimpers in pain.

"Some of them can hurt. That's one of the symptoms but I'm on my way, Okay?"

She internally fought with herself, she didn't want to bother him certainly with something like this. But she was scared and alone and didn't know what to do.

"Okay. Please hurry." 

"I am. Do you want to stay in the phone with me?"

"Yes, please."

"Alright and where are you in your apartment?"

"On the floor in the living room." She sniffles.

"Okay, do you think you can get up and unlock your door for me?"

"I feel safer down here. Do I have too?"

"No, you can stay down."

"I'm sorry."

"You don't have to apologize. Is there something around you that made this start?"

"No, I just thought about *hesitates* someone."

"What did this someone do?"

She felt her heart starting to beat faster and a lump forming in her throat as her memories of broken bones and bloody floors started to flash before her eyes.

"Stop! That's making it worse!'' She yells in agony.

"Okay. I'm sorry,"

"Are you almost here?" She asks

"Yeah, I'm pulling up."

z's pov

I hear his footsteps running up the stairs towards my apartment and something shifting in the door.

I sigh. 

"It's so cold." I mutter to myself.

"Z? Hey, you alright? Wanna get off the floor?"

I quirk my head to the side, "How did you get in?"

"Bobby pin." he says picking me up bridal style.

He carries me to my bedroom sitting down with me in his lap.

This feels, weird?

"What can I do to help?''

"Um, I don't know."

He wipes away my stray tears pulling me close to his chest,

"Is this okay?"

"Mhmm." I sigh laying my head on his chest.

"Can you hear my heartbeat?"

"yeah?"

"I want you to focus on that, okay? Breathe in and out really slowly." he says soothingly,

"Okay.'' She hiccups,

It takes a little while but I eventually get my breathing down to his,

"Good. Your doing great." he smiles

"I am?" I question not used to hearing that,

"Yeah, Are you feeling better?"

"Yeah, thanks."

"Do you normally have panic attacks?"

"No. Not really. I just thought about the wrong thing."

"Okay. I have a offer for you,"

"Let's hear it."

"I'll take you anywhere you wanna go and I'll for pay everything. But you have to get out of this apartment for at least 2 hours. Deal?"

"Deal." I say hopping of his lap,

"First stop?"

"Starbucks."

(cause coffee makes everything better)

"Yes ma'am." he smiles grabbing his keys.