Don't try, it's not worth it
This was it.
They all offered to give her space on her own, but she knew deep down, they would want to speak to him too.
Clutching the small diamond shaped stone in her hand, she squeezed her eyes shut. Waiting.
"Hello love"
The voice made her head snap up. He was here. He looked clean, neat. Not like he had when she had last seen him, covered in blood and wet from the bath.
She gulped down the cry that was so close to escaping her throat. She opened her mouth to say something, yell at him, scream, but there was nothing.
After a couple of minutes silence, he spoke first.
"I am so sorry love, i.." the figure stepped closer to her, "I was in so much pain"
"I'm in pain too"
He sighed and a solemn look appeared on his face, "I know my darling, and I will never forgive myself for causing you this pain, but I would have hurt you in the long run"
She shook her head no at his statement.
"I love you, and you've abandoned me, how am I supposed to live without you" tears involuntarily escaping her eyes, "and now I'm here on my own, dealing with this, we were a team"
He put his hand up to her cheek, but the absence of the feeling made her heart ache even more. He isn't actually here.
He really is dead.
The emotional pain now feeling tenfold, causing her to fall to her knees. She let out a scream that she had been holding in.
"Take me with you" she pleaded.
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It's better not to waste your time tonight
"Granger," the ghost pleaded. She couldn't even look him in the eye, she knew that seeing him in front of her and not being able to hold him would kill even more. "Granger you belong here, you have so many things you will accomplish, you don't need me"
She raised her head, wiping her nose on her sleeve.
"I don't need you?" She scoffed at him, "I can't fucking breathe without you. I can't eat, I can't sleep. You have killed yourself and killed my soul with it"
She finally looked up to his face, his grey eyes staring back at her, she loved his eyes.
"Fall in love with someone's eyes, because they never change, no matter how old they get"
Her mothers words in the back of her mind. She had fallen in love with him, completely. How was she going to do this all again with someone knew? How will she ever find someone to take his place.
"You have completely destroyed me. You were my family and now I am all alone. I want to die, Draco, gods I want to end it all"
"Trust me Granger, you will find your reason. I am not your reason for living, I want you to live and be happy" Draco replied, kneeling next to her, "and I'm not really gone, I'm always here, by your side. I just couldn't take it any longer, the nightmares, the paranoia, the stares, everything. I feel better now, free from pain"
"I love you Granger, don't ever forget that, I never ever wanted to hurt you." He placed a kiss on her forehead and stood up.
"I love you too"
