But I Need You..

Chapter 1 ~

Jasmine's P.O.V

Under a blanket near our fireplace, I'm looking at something..

It's a photo album filled with memories. Each photo had a story, an incident, each photo had feelings and emotions.
Each photo said a lot..

There's this one from one of my childhood's summer break. And this one from the time we lived in our old house. I miss it a lot. Unfortunately, many things happened and we had to move.. I sighed, remembering my life back then.
There's me, I giggled at how clumsy I looked.
There's Mum, gorgeous as ever.
There's Alexander, my big brother.
And there's Dad, which I haven't seen in ages.

Dad is a whole different story.. The last time I have seen him.. When I was 11 years, that was 4 years ago..
And the last thing I had seen him do, is breaking everything around and leaving..
What a great memory..!
I felt tears welling up, hiding between my lashes, trying not to run down..
And as I blinked, they streamed down my cheeks..

Whatever really.. It's been a long time. I shouldn't be thinking about that.

But another memory came across my mind.
One day, Mum and Dad were fighting. And that was normal. But the thing is, it was midnight and I was supposed to be sleeping. This time, their voices were louder than ever! And I could hear something break.
Then, Alexander knocked the door and came into my room.
'Are okay?', he said.
I don't remember replying really. I remember I was scared.
He hugged me and kissed my forehead and told me everything will be okay..
We stayed like that until they stopped and then he covered me with my blanket and went to his room.
He'd always been there..

Although everything wasn't exactly okay.. But it may have been worse, right?

Oh Alexander.. I miss him so much..
Yeah sure he is in the room next to me, but we weren't like that before.
He had always been my guardian angel! We've been so close!

But ever since he started high school, we barely spent time together anymore.
We both changed I admit it.
At that time we weren't okay, so much was going on.
Between Mum and Dad, and moving.. That affected us a lot.
Now I'm in high school, but still we're not like how we were before..

We barely talk anymore.

I heard Mum calling for us to have dinner.
I sighed, got up and put the album back.
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Today is a new day.. I woke up and surprisingly I felt like I have slept well!
I stretched out my arms in the air, then got up and got ready.

Then I came downstairs to have breakfast. Mum and Alexander were already there.

"I got a call yesterday..", Mum said all of a sudden breaking the silence.

Alexander and I just looked at her waiting for her to go on.

"Someone had been skipping school..", she continued.

I furrowed my brows at Alexander, but he just raised his eyebrows and went on eating.
"Alexander..", Mum called.
"Yeah I overslept a couple of days..", he simply said.
"You exceeded the number of allowed absences! What were you thinking? Do you want me to beg to get you out of this?", Mum got a bit angry.

"I found a job..", he said.
"What?", I interfered.

"A job?", Mum looked at him. "Why? You need money? Isn't what I'm doing enough?"
"It's not that.. I just want to be more independent.."

"Well if that means you'll be exhausted everyday and end up skipping school.. Then no, young man, you quit immediately!"

"Why Mum?", he protested.
"Education comes first!", she replied strictly.

Then she got up and left to work.

"You got a job?", I said. Obviously he did.
"Okay now I'm not in the mood to hear you babble too!", he said getting up.
"No I just.. I mean..", I tried to explain but he just walked away.

I sighed. I actually thought it was a good idea! Oh well. He didn't even let me speak!

I got up and walked out the house heading to school.
Sometimes Alexander would drive me, since we go to the same school, but I liked to walk sometimes. Good exercise!
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I arrived to school.
In school I had a couple of good friends, Lauren and Taylor. I preferred to stick to having a small group of friends only.
My teachers were okay I guess, although some of them didn't like me since I was "Alexander's sister" . I don't remember when exactly being judged this way started.. But what I know; Alexander was a smart guy! He would get straight A's just like that. But he has changed. Like he doesn't care anymore.. In fact, it seems like he feels this way towards everything!

I see Alexander at school everyday but we never talk to each other.
We don't always go to school together and we never go home together.
And believe it or not, this actually hurts me!

Sometimes when I see him walking around the hallways I feel like I need to run to him and hug him so tight!

But I can't.. Not now. It would be weird..

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Sugarcoated_moon ~<3