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ZAYN POV:

It's been two months since louis had left I didn't hear from him since then and honestly I believe I never will, why? You may ask well it's simply because last month I went to my grandmother's house and discovered that its owner which is legally louis had put it on sell I didn't believe my ears I thought my mind playing tricks on me but when I recheck I broke down in tears like I always do and if it wasn't for liam who was with me I wouldn't make it home and that where I am now at 3 am listening to the radio at the highest level which probably will wake my father and his wife and kids like every other night but honestly I don't care anymore, why should I? no one care about me?!

My bedroom's door flow open and my dad's angry face come to my view

"ZAYN!!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING??"

I shrugged as response and his face is telling me that I shouldn't have done that

" DIDN'T I TELL YOU TO TURN THAT FREAKING THING DOWN THIS MORNING? "

"it's the only thing that I enjoy in this house " and at my words he stormed toward the radio and throw it against the wall i quickly stand trying to catch it but he bet me to it and start break it more under his feet "DAD PLEASE STOP " I was crying while I tried to get him of but then I stopped when I saw it's already crushed to pieces, my dad stopped after a minute and look toward me with angry eyes that made me gulp "you know zayn I didn't think you'd make me more disappointed but you always find a way to prove to me how wrong I am" oh didn't I tell you my father had known about my nan's house and since then he made me leave college and took away my phone and laptop as I was grounded for life as he said, he won't even look or talk to me except when he is yelling to stop the music and now here we are with me silently crying and him standing at my door shaking his head " try to clean this room or take a walk in the garden just do something with your life " and he was gone i want to scream and tell him that I wish I know what to do I wish for someone to guide me through this whole fucked up life but for now I dragged my self to the window and sit on it till the next morning come.

"zee, zayn....c'mon"I hear someone whispering in my ear i open my eyes to close them again then reopen them slowly to adjust them to light

" what do you want?" I asked justin while moving to my bathroom to do my morning business

"nothing just want you to come downstairs for breakfast"he said from my bedroom

" I don't want to " I said looking at my reflex on the mirror to see my puffy eyes from crying all night and I can hear him sigh "please zayn "

" no justin "

"zee c'mon you didn't left this damn room for whole month " I open my bathroom door " like someone care" and his head shot up at that

"don't say that zayn you have me and liam and even dad " I scoffed at that

"yea right, just yesterday he was screaming how awful I am as his son "

" I heard it but you know damn well that he was doing it cause he don't like seeing you like this and to be quite honest I am too "

I nodded tearing up again " I know I just can't "

" and that the problem zee l know that you went through alot of things in your life but you always put smile on your face infront of every one then cry yourself to sleep... "I tried to cut him off but he rose his finger ".. Don't you dare tell me you didn't because I heard you myself and the point is you seem like you give up now and you're drawing yourself into depression " I nodded once more " I'll be waiting for you downstairs " he kissed my head and left.