One Year |Karlnap angst|

May

Tw: Self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and a bit of drowning

May 1 Karl's pov

I woke up in an unfamiliar room. Remembering the day's prior events I smiled. The only question I had was how the hell did I get here and who brought me to the room. I grabbed a new set of clothes and changed. My stomach rumbled, I knew I was hungry. I haven't eaten in a while considering I probably slept like 24 hours. I walked downstairs where Wilbur and Tommy were sitting "Oh hey guys! When did you get here?" Tommy jumped unaware that someone else was here. "Oh, we flew in around 3 am last night!" Wilbur seemed excited "Thank god you're awake I don't think I could stand another minute with only the gremlin" I chuckled as Tommy playfully hit him "You take that back Bitch!"

The door opened and in came Dream followed by Sapnap, Eret, Tubbo, Quackity, Niki, Fundy, and George. I sipped my monster and waved at them from where I was sitting in the kitchen. Tommy slid nearly killing Tubbo and mauled him in a hug. It was wholesome, to say the least. Everyone separated and went to their rooms and a few returned to the living room. I finished my cereal and joined the others on the couch. Dream spoke up first "Since we all have a pool here do you all want to go swim!" Everyone seemed excited.

I was nervous I couldn't swim in a hoodie and I couldn't let anyone see my arms. "Oh I'm good but I can chill out there and watch!" Wilbur looked at me confused but quickly ran to the room Tommy, Tubbo, and he was sharing. The others followed in pursuit leaving Karl to go out to the back deck and wait for them to return. Dream was first and launched himself into the pool. The others trickled out of the house and jumped in. Tommy started a water fight with Wilbur and was promptly dunked. I laughed harder than I have in a while. That was until I felt someone pick me up over their shoulder. "No stop put me down! Please!" I felt water rush onto my face and into my ears. I panicked and flailing. This is where I die. I felt someone pull me out. I was sputtering and quickly ran inside. I could hear people calling after me but I couldn't care. I ran to my bathroom and locked the door. I was soaked and I had to take off my hoodie anyway. Just do it. They obviously don't care if you die considering they tried to drown you. at least cut yourself it will be nice. I grabbed the blade and slit my skin leaving red trails the water made the blood spread. If I wasn't so upset and maybe without my own blood it may have looked cool. I sobbed on the floor until I stopped and pulled my arms against myself and put on a new hoodie. Going back downstairs I sat on the couch. Niki was sitting there. I think she noticed my puffy eyes and slid closer to me putting her hand on my arm. "Are you alright?" She sounded so genuine and caring, Instead of saying anything I started crying again she pulled me into a hug and rubbed circles on my back. "Hey it's alright you're gonna be okay. I'm here for you deep breaths." I breathed in and it calmed me down a bit "I-I'm sorry" She frowned confused on why I was apologizing, "Hey It's ok you do not need to apologize crying is good and normal." I smiled through my tears "T-thank you N-Niki" she gave me a sweet smile and hugged me tighter. "Do you wanna talk about it? You don't have to of course." I nodded "I got thrown into the pool when I didn't want to be and I got scared and thought I was gonna drown." Niki stiffened and pulled away "Who the fuck threw you in." She stood up and marched out the back door. I followed her like a duckling. "WHO THE HELL THREW KARL IN THE POOL!" I flinched at the sudden yelling, Dream raised his hand cautiously. "Why the hell did you do that!? He obviously didn't want to swim and you shook him up! what the fuck is wrong with you!" Dream looked scared no one heard Niki get this angry before she was similar to a mama bear protecting her cub. Dream looked at his feet guilty "I'm sorry Karl what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done it." I nodded confused at getting an apology "I-It's alright just please don't do it again." He nodded in return. Niki glared at him and turned around grinning at me. "T-Thank you, Niki." She grabbed my hand and pulled me into the house "No problem!" We messed around for the rest of the afternoon. Niki, Tubbo, and I made sugar cookies in the shape of bees after Tubbo requested it. They were delicious and we were soon back on the couch watching a movie. Tubbo was holding a bee plush and I was curled up under a blanket. I felt someone behind me grab my shoulders. "AH!" I screamed in fear and flinched away. Wilbur was behind me and now everyone was looking at me. I looked down at the floor "Sorry I wasn't expecting someone to be behind me." Wilbur looked guilty "Nah mate it's my fault I shouldn't have crept up behind you." I nodded "Anyways Tommy and Sapnap wanted to know if you'd join our car ride to Mcdonalds for food!"

I stood up and followed behind and out to the car.

It was strangely quiet Tommy wasn't even talking. I felt Sapnap put his hand on my knee I got suddenly anxious. I would've liked the affection if Wilbur hadn't spoken up "So Karl we have a question to ask." I held my breath "Can we see your arms?" You didn't hide it well enough loser. "I uh why?" Tommy looked back at me from his spit next to Wilbur in the front. "I well saw what I'm assuming to be scars and cuts on your arms earlier after you got out of the pool. Sapnap and Wilbur noticed too but no one else saw anything. Can you show us it's alright if you don't want to." Tommy seemed concerned and much different from how he normally acts. I sighed and rolled up my sleeves. "I-I'm sorry." Sapnap spoke first and pulled me into a hug "Don't apologize it's not your fault for anything." I was crying again. Wilbur and Tommy spoke in unison "We'll be here if you ever need us." They looked at each other and burst into a fit of giggles. Sapnap and I started laughing as well. 

Words 1144. Bit of a long chapter I got a bit carried away but it was fun to write! <3