love shouldnt cost a thing

Chapter 4

i made it to georgia ok i got stopped a few time but i couldnt care i just wanted to get away from the man i called myself loving.

i wonder if hes out looking for me god why wont he just treat me right ive done all of my wifely duties and womenly duties too why cant i just get my respect from the so called man i married.

ring ring!!

what the hell is that? i looked through the car to find a phone and it was in my pocket the whole time

it was derrick

should i answer it ?.....nope

it rang one last time as i pulled up the driveway of my moms house

it still felt like home

i walked up to the door and rang the doorbell

ruff! ruff! i heard the dog shuffling before i saw anyone

when the door opened i started to well up in tears .i saw a tall smooth skin caramel girl, grey eyes, and brown locks that cascaded down tot the middle of her back.i cant believe this was my daughter.

"lauren who is it?" my mother asked as she came to the door

her eyes widened at the look of my face i knew i looked horrible and i hated that my mom has to see it.

"marisol ?" she asked as she opened the glass screen door

"yeah mom" i said

"come on in baby"

i walked inside as lauren moved out of the doorway

i went to sit on the couch

my mama went to the kitchen and brought back a wash cloth

"get up and go to the bathroom" she said

she was on the verge of tears

i went to the bathroom as i was told

the room smelled of vanilla like the rest of the house with yellow lillies and a powdered blue wall paint

i knew my mama hated to see me like this

she closed the door so it was just me and her

"how long has this been going on ?" she asked

" a few months after we got married "

"why didnt you call me baby you know you deserve much better than this we gon call yo brotha and hes gonna deal with that derrick ok"

lance my oldest brother was a retired army sergeant and now FBI agent

"mam-"

"dont mama me i raised you for too long and you were raised as my princess and if derrick cant treat you like the jewel you are then to heck with him! im calling lance and your getting your things and coming back home to reconnect with your daughter , to love her and raise her right she needs a mother not grandmother marisol and this man putting his hands on you aint making it no better "

i was crying

" i do love my baby its just i was so stupid" that was it i was bawlin now

" its ok baby its gone get better , come here "

i walked towards my mama amd hugged her

when my head hit her chest it felt comfortable she wrapped her arms around me and i just melted at the embrace no one has ever hugged me like this

she smelled of sweet pea perfume from bath and body works

feelings the strength coming from her mad me baffle more releasing all the hurt derrick put me through

after 20 minutes in the bathroom i finally cleaned up myself to talk to lauren

i was walking upstairs to my old room and when i opened the door everything i mean everything from when i was still living there was in its place but there was a few new things like posters of beyonce, alicia keys and debrah cox plastered all over the walls it was a large mirror collage with old pictures of me and i believe laurens drawings along with her and my mama out traveling. then there was a snowball collection on the fireplace with picture frames of me surrounding them i walked over to the neatly made bed and picked up a white teddy bear with lauren stitched in the middle of it

it was the teddy bear i sent for her 4th birthday

i hugged it as if it was lauren

the door opened and lauren was standing there with glassy eyes i knew she was about to cry

"you know who i am dont you?" i asked

" yeah " she walked towards me then plopped down on my lap and started crying and hugging me.

"why did you leave me mama ?" she cried harder

"im sorry im so so sorry baby i never wanted to leave you i just...i had to get things right for us i promise ill never do it again though ok?"

she nodded her head yeah

i pulled my pinky out and we pinky promised

i promise from this day forward to be a mother before anything else

" i love you mama"

" i love you too baby "

we fell asleep after that cuddled under her fluffy pink blankets and in between thousands of shaped pillows

i love this little girl